Patti

• Fri, 07 Jun 1996 07:21:39
• Sat, 08 Jun 1996 21:45:51

Fri, 07 Jun 1996 07:21:39

   Hi everyone. My name is Patti and I have been enjoying reading the posts to this list alot.
    11 years ago I had a spontaneous full body kundalini awakening.
    It started with a pain in my left foot, progressed to the pelvic area, where it stayed for about 3 weeks. Every symptom in the world: burning, ice, tingling, itching, goose bumps, fire, snake bites, tickling, electricity... you name it. I thought I had herpes, until it started going up my back, at which point I was checked for major diseases. Nothing. The pain and fear grew more intense. I would wake up and feel like I was plugged into a wall socket.
    I was alone. It freaked me out.
    Night sweats, and a sense of dying. Arms going numb. Prickly stuff flipping from one part of my body to another, seemingly at random. Way more symtoms than described here. Finally went through the crown of my head, where I had a near death experience. Went into the white light, all of that. I definitely emerged a new person, in present time, in love.
   
    It came down the front of me, stopped in my abdomen, about 6 weeks after the whole thing started. For the next 9 months it cycled so continuously through my body that it never stopped for a moment. After that, it became an occasional thing. Now (especially around my periods) I get terrible migraines, burning, strange bumps and blisters in my pelvic area
    (I have no STD's and no herpes), and strange, wild moods. My sex drive is very high.
   
    I changed dramatically as a result of the awakening.
    I found love. I became very popular without trying and very eager to live life fully in every second. I didn't find out about kundalini for 3 years. I was so relieved. At least then I knew I wasn't going to die and didn't have a contagious disease. Just knowing what was going on has been a great blessing.
   
    I enjoy this group a lot already. I related to the person who said that when he feels his symtoms, he pauses to appreciate the kundalini, for that is what I do. (Appreciation makes more sense than fear, which is what I might feel otherwise.) We might as well, it is here for good as far as I know. It brings havoc on one level, but also great consciousness of love and compassion and healing.
   
    I would like to know how to deal with my migraines, which seem to be getting worse and worse over time. I am reluctant to take drugs to prevent them, for I have heard that resisted kundalini is far more dangerous than when one lets it just do its thing. But, my migraines are so bad that at times I couldn't even be moved to be taken to an emergency room.
    Now with Imitrex and painkillers, I cope, but I have to keep telling my doctor something about what I am doing about this situation ....
   
    I am very heartened to communicate with others who have had experiences. I find we have the ability to "juice" each other in a positive way very quickly. At least that is what I have discovered in person.
   
    As for spirit, I am involved with Tantra.
    I practice extended orgasm with my partner, often for an hour a day. It is something that brings me into the light any time I want. TO me, to have that (going ito the light) as an option is the greatest miracle of all.
   
    Thanks everyone for listening. THIs is the first time I have ever posted to a group. I hope to get to know you all.
    Love, Patti
   
   

Sat, 08 Jun 1996 21:45:51