To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/12/21 03:45
Subject: [K-list] RE: K-list Digest, Vol 18, Issue 24
From: J.1 G.
On 2004/12/21 03:45, J.1 G. posted thus to the K-list:
>Dear Jason,
>
well, to some degree, i think people should have to suffer. at least one in
your life, should should have to experiance some kind of major pain, to see
what thats like..even if that pain is a "long dark night of the soul" or
example, something that seems really bad and negative and horrible to have
to go through, even though its mostly an illusion, you're body isn't really
being hurt, but you feel stabs and pains. eventually a "dark night" will
break you, you hit the bottom and you can finally let it go..
the answer for me, was to deal with all my emotional shite first. first
thing i did when i woke up. then my feelings became more free...i'm not
attached to the way i feel, and i dont hold on to emtional baggage. you can
feel anything you want, provided with the right fuel. listening to the right
music makes me feel certain ways. sadness, elation, sometimes i connect to
very sexual music.. its good to be aware of how everything around you
effects you. how colors effect you, how kittens effect you.. good to be
aware of how other people effect you. its good to realize what you are open
to..am i open to my k eperiances getting better? or for some odd reason do i
have a hidden belief that things will never change? or for some reason do
i believe that release has to be experianced negativty?
i kind of wonder if love is just an illusion too? seems like you can be in
love with anything, but wouldn't that be compleatly meaningless?? why do
people want there to be meaning to their life?? didn't humans come up with
this whole idea of meaningfullness, and lack of meaning, don't humans create
these experiances for them selves? people dont tend to realize how free they
are, not in my world anyway. people seem to be caught up in working and
making rent, trying to fall in love with someone, or dealing with the ending
of a troubbled relationship. ..i mean we create all these experiances for
our selves,, we quietly make the decision to be unfullfilled, to be in loss,
to experiance the world blindly.
your body is already connected to "source", why would you have to meditate
on that? furthermore, i dont really know if there is a "source" when my
crown chakra opened up, there was a warm feeling of light, but it didn't
feel like it was beaming down onto my head.. i dont know if theres any
truth to that, perhaps that light came from a different place than up???
if your life has been a mess, look at what you've been holding on to...
let everything go, and ask for only what is yours to come back. examine what
you are looking for-are you looking for spiritual troubbles?? do you expect
your life to be hard? you can tell your self everything will be just fine,
and relax, and allow good things to happen for you, or you can pretend that
it'll take years for you to get better + that you will have to suffer for
it.
latly, to bring about change, i put on the bealtes, this elates me, then i
just kinda gard all these elated feelings and through them out into my life,
or twords my friends. seems like this is the easiest way to work with
energy. or jump up and down and get your self excited, and then ask that
excitment to go out where every it should go, maybe all that excited
positive energy should be sent into your third eye?? or into someone elses?
or into your dreamlife? or into 'source' or the earth, or where ever.
being 'in touch' has been the best way for me to connect to life. get in
touch with each chakra, with the energy, get in touch with intelligence,
confidence, knowingness, even get in touch with your insecurities, and your
lonlyness, and your sadness. send out a great movement of spiritual
liberation. everything in your life can just change, everything! even if
your life is already 'pleasant'. rebel, and experiance whole new sides of
your self. let go of what you think you are. try to more honestly free your
mind.
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