To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/12/04 06:18
Subject: [K-list] RE: K-list Digest, Vol 18, Issue 4
From: J.1 G.
On 2004/12/04 06:18, J.1 G. posted thus to the K-list:
life = loss???
suffer at least a quarter of what jesus might have!
for others in your life
even if you dont think you could!!
suffer!!
stop breathing in your sleep!!
dont look back!!
die die die!!
and expect understanding of others!!!
i like to pretend sexual energy is easy to feel,
u;ve never really been very grounded? sometimes i think civilization is
slowly moving closer to the heavens??
maybe newborns are born less and less physical, more and more emotional?
then mental?
astral even!! i've witnessed astral souls, perhaps even you ??
seems like we fuck up the earth as much as we can,
so she can change?? seems like being all screwed up makes us stronger?
makes us more aware?? makes us change?
seems like that anyway/??
i know what my problem is, i just cant even point to it, cant even process
it enough to talk about it to someone else to understand it well enough to
pretend that i would know what to do about it.
some people are confused sexually, some people have phases where they are
more attracted to women than men, then more attrated to men than women, and
slowly they realize they can be attracted to anything they set their mind
to, but they cant get over a single god damn fear they have??
cant touch a single soul??? cant touch anyone!! never ever honestly
could?!?!
stuck in a dream?/
i know i've a little screwed over cause i happened to see a few things i
couldn't possibly understand when i was wayyy (wheyyy) too young. too many
things. bad things. i know where my problems come from, i just cant change
it??
i could say to myself "its okay, yer problems will clear up in due time"
but i've had these problems for too long.
they've leveled up. they've become something thats more likly to devore me
than me them??
gotta be a sacrafice?? dotta die for the soul o0f someone else??
BAHH GAHH diee EHH EHHHe ehhhh
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