To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/11/14 22:52
Subject: Fwd: Re: [K-list] Intimacy and Connection
From: Diamondsutra
On 2004/11/14 22:52, Diamondsutra posted thus to the K-list:
Forwarded From: diamondsutraATnetidea.com
> Dear Hillary:
>
> Thanks so much for your supportive words. I'm not experiencing this
> energy as libido or sexual need AT ALL. As a matter of fact, the
connection
> I had last year in which there was sooo much tantrik lovemaking, has sort
> of "finished off" (for lack of a better way to put it) what might have been
> any unrequited need for sexual coupling.
>
> My sense is that whatever amount of sexual residue (for there is such a
> big difference for me between making love and "having sex") might have
gotten
> mixed in with that lovemaking, in spite of its pure intention (that is, its
> intention to bring more love into me, into the man and onto the earth), is
> responsible for the "longing for love" happening right now.
>
> I guess I want to say here that for me, one big difference between
making
> love and having sex is that sex has in it imagination, impatience, goal
> orientation (that is trying to orgasm or even trying not to orgasm);
whereas
> lovemaking .......is more still. (I feel like I've gone further than
I 'want
> to" here in discussing this uninvited......nevertheless.....i trust the
list
> with what feels a bit risky here...)
>
> So, I'm seeing this longing as a pattern or an addiction (rightly or
> wrongly) and it is becoming clear to me that kundalini, at this time, is
> causing me to face pattern after pattern and that blessedly some letting go
> is occuring. I'm seeing the "longing for intimacy" as part of a
purification
> (I don't really like that word as I don't really aspire to being pure) or
as
> the sex leaving my body, making more space for love.
>
> Sometimes the longing gets so uncomfortable that it is a blessing to
have
> the list to share with. I nurtured my sense of lonliness yesterday by
going
> into town, visiting with a friend who has just had surgery and then having
> dinner with my daughter and granddaughter.
>
> Today I am more at ease and more in right aloneness than in lonliness.
>
> Hmmmmmmm. Feels like this was somewhat awkwardly stated. I trust it has
> some clarity in it. Thank you Hillary and thank you all for reading this.
>
>
> DruoutATaol.com said:
>
> > Dear Deesutra,
> >
> > One thing is certain, K can cause the libido to go into hyperdrive! This
> > can, of course, get confused with desire for companionship and desire for
a
> mate
> > as well as wanting connection with others. After all, Kundalini is, in
> part
> > sexual energy. People seem to have different ways of dealing with this,
> but
> > it's not exactly easy!
> >
> > Love, Hillary
> >
> >
> > In a message dated 11/12/2004 5:25:48 PM Pacific Standard Time,
> > diamondsutraATnetidea.com writes:
> > First the sleeping meds, then smoking and now.....an intense longing for
> > connection and intimacy with man....in truth and love of God.
> >
>
>
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