To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/11/13 17:15
Subject: [K-list] Hello all...i'm new and want to say hello
From: Aura
On 2004/11/13 17:15, Aura posted thus to the K-list:
Hello! My name is Aura, and i have decided to finnaly join this
list. As i write this the clock on my computer is about to strike 3:00a.m.
I'm 18 (just finished high school yay!) so i have a lot of free time to work
on myself.
A couple of months ago my dog decided to wake me up at 3.a.m with one loud
bark...which was unusual, that and no one else heard it but me (he wanted to
be let outside to relieve himself) anyway, i couldnt go back to sleep, so i
went on the internet...looked at kundalini-gateway(which i had know about
for a little while from some links from the ninjery Glenn Morris
hoshinroshinryu website. I'm not from that...hardcore Bujinkan Budo
Taijutsu addict myself :) i found Angelique's grounding...which lead me to
her site (www.kundalini-teacher.com) which is brilliant. I devoured it
over the course of the next three days. It answered so many questions, and
pointed out things that i had noticed in the past but never really explained
(like the prana sparkles...always noticed them, my mum didnt though, and i
concluded that they might be insects...thats a lot of insects though!, as
well as the warning feeling from the solar plexus chakra, it can be a little
scary for an eight year old getting really powerful warnings about being
betrayed yikes...its saved my life though. any way thankyou Angelique for
such an in depth explanaition for my weirdness)
There is much more whcih convinces me that i'm going to do this sort of
stuff in my life, which is good because death of the ego appeals to me.
Anyway i get to the point of this post.
After meeting a strong healer who gave me some energy (we met on the
internet, she is on the other side of the world, she heals by coming inside
me in astral travel and the nseeing whats wrong she sayes she brings a fairy
with her to keep her safe i think, is that dangerous?, it seems to me that
i'm quite vulnurable to attack).
On November 3 from about 2 too 2:30 a.m i had an incredible experience with
very clear symptoms of kundalini manifestations (from the symptoms section
of your website)...i'll set the scene. i become less than half awake...so i
know i am a awake but to asleep to let ego get in the way. as i am lying in
bed i move my energy in a clockwise direction around myself (as Angelique
said that this concentrates it, it was kindof subconscious though) , and the
back of my eyelids turn a very bright lime green colour...very cool. Heart
colour, this got me exited as i had never had that happen before and i
thought its cool that stuff is finnaly starting to happen. The light behind
my eyelids short of flash green and black, like it was short circuting (not
enough energy i guess). anyway i sort of fall asleep again and roll onto my
belly. (here comes the good bit)
The most amazing energy rushes through my body, and i become very very stiff
(but not a muscle stiffness, more energy i think) this energy moved my body
into this position, there was so much of it that i lost the feeling of my
legs, so much so that i felt as though the lower part of my body was
floating which it might have been...who knows i had my eyes closed. As this
is happening i hear the loudest roar of waterfalls i have ever hear din my
life...a thousand big waterfalls as one sound, but with the sharp slap of
water hitting rock cut out so that i only hear the is the roar. Very cool.
as this was happening i was watching this happening in the witness state
(quite strange), this problably explains why there was no fear, i was quite
excited, during and afterwards. also while this was happeing i had
remembered Angeliques adivce to surrender and not to fear...so i just let it
happaen which was amazing. It doesnt end here though and i am coming up to
the part which is puzzling me. I don't know how long this energy rush went
on (and dont say between 2 and 2:30 as i dont know what time it began,
however it felt like a short time, maybe a minute or two) but after a time
(i should explain my body position here so it makes sense...i am lying on my
belly on my bed with my head to the side facing left. This force then made
me curve me spine into a bow in the direction that my head was pointing so
that now my upper torso is facing left. When this movement stops i hear a
voice. The voice spoke in an announicing tone like it was annoucing
something great, i later determined this voice to be genderless it was just
a voice with no tonal qualities (i know i said it had an announcing tone in
the last sentance but its hard to explai..it spoke powerfuly)
This is what it said "HOLY JESUS CHRIST..." the roaring as well as the
energy was still flowing through me but i heard these three words were very
clear and cut about everything else, though not blocking out the other
sensations. It said some other things after this but i couldnt make it
out...
Then it stopped and i was stunned...what had just happened...i lay in bed
and thanked god for being in my life, and thanked God for doing this...i
said goddess at the time though(although i don;t consider myself a Christian
just so you know, which is why i don't understand...)
So after reading and wishing about some sort of kundalini thing happening to
me it finnaly happens, i so happy and relieved that something is happeneing
now. This didnt hurt at all and i wasnt afraid...in fact it was really
great to surrender to this. It is difficult to convey the feelings.
Nothing like this has happened since...but i want it to keep going. Maybe
you people can help me out a little.
Again thankyou Angelique for having this weblist and writing what you write.
Gambatte (keep going)
Aura
_________________________________________________________________
Check Hoyts movie times via SMS:
http://hoyts.ninemsn.com.au/session/sms_sessiontimes.asp
DISCLAIMER!
Home | Archive Index | Search the archives | Subscribe
K. List FAQ | Kundalini FAQs | Signs and Symptoms | Awakening Experiences | K. list Polls | Member Essays | Meditations | List Topics | Art Gallery | Cybrary | Sitemap | Email the moderators.
symbol.