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Recieved: 2004/11/05 22:36
Subject: RE: [K-list] mental disorders/energy/divine connection...
From: robert hoffman

I was diagnosed as bipolar FOLLOWING my k-awakening. I experienced what
psychs call psychotic episodes because when awakened to Truth my ego
still functioned in a dominant role because the awakening of the Heart
chakra and chakras above that was new and ego had not yet been suborned
to the new regime. So intellect det about interpreting transendent Truth
in ways that made sense to it, hence I "heard God, spoke to God and
messianicly was God" because ego had no way of processing the
information that said All that is, incuding you and all other beings,
are God. It was only after journeying throughthe transformative process
initiated by k-awakening that I surrendered sufficiently to accord my
Heart dominance over ego (a process which continues) and which allows me
to remain balanced and stable without medication.

I do not know whether I am bi-polar in the classic sense. My psych has
questions about that. But I live today from a completely open heart and
with a very balanced but strong energy flow. I do not experience any of
the strong surges and peak experiences of the initial awakening, but I
do have a strong sense of steadily rising in energy frequency. This is
punctuated by frequent kriyas that almost always take the form of
crying; the energy continually releases emotioonal blockage.

I would love to discuss this further with bipolar kundalites on this
list.

Rob


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[mailto:K-list-bouncesATkundalini-gateway.org] On Behalf Of Kate
Sent: Friday, November 05, 2004 2:42 PM
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Subject: [K-list] mental disorders/energy/divine connection...





okay, i am going to try to explain some of what i think, which will be
hard considering i am typing with my non-dominant hand...heh...my dog is
a bit overzealous...

this is an even more interesting topic following my satori experience
last Sat.

i believe that mental disease, especially bipolar/schizophrenia (i dont
know enough about adhd to say but bipolar runs in my family and my
nephew was diagnosed adhd) are "symptoms" of an "integrated" and "always
open" connection with the divine - like spontaneous k awakening.

DISCLAIMER!

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