To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/10/14 17:06
Subject: [K-list] karmic buildup
From: Shadow121
On 2004/10/14 17:06, Shadow121 posted thus to the K-list:
Hi,
I've been doing alot of thinking. alot of thinking about the whole kundalini
thing. about how , i dont appreciate the tingles anymore because they have
become meaningless. I think that kundalini is a buildup of karma.
It's in my ears.
when I was young I had ear infections and when I would lay down on my parents
, I would start to cry. I did this becaue the sound of the world hurt my
ears. I would listen to my parents heart and it would hurt me. so , i have grown
and become older , had this fear of pain throughout my life and i was
unconscience of it. needless to say , from both sides of life , the female and the male
, i have developed fear. throughout relationships with life , there has been
this space, this seperation, of me and life. This seperatoin has been a fear
developed at a young age.
It's in my mouth through to my ears. i am feeling alot of pressure near my
molars , back in the back of my mouth. it hurts alot and i am noticinghow deeeep
this pain goes. this pain only does one thing , "it stops me from being
withthemoment". that's also what i think kundalini does. as a Protestant , I have
realized that following the kundalini is a part of me that should not exist on
this plane of existance. it is not a part of the true me.
there are other ways that i have learned it, and all of the ideas that stem
from false gods must go.
so in essence , i guess i am asking for advice on how to clear that pain from
the back of my throat. that pressure inside that has built up since the fear
was started with my ear trauma.
much love,
hope to hear from you all
Patrick
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