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Subject: [K-list] A Series of Thoughts
From: Guy Johnson
On 2004/09/28 17:05, Guy Johnson posted thus to the K-list:
Hi K-list,
This is a writing I am working on and thought it would be interesting
to invite your thoughts on it as this is such a knowledgable group on such
matters.
I sense that others are uncomfortable with my writing because I do not honor
cherished beliefs.
A Series of Thoughts: to help clear the way for intellect to surrender fear
of change and allow spiritual growth.
As I communicate my truth and offer my experiences to those who seek
knowledge about energy, awakening and spiritual development, I have
witnessed a single, unifying block. Namely, that the very kind of sensory
learning that spiritual seeking requires is in direct opposition to the kind
, of learning we embrace, become and treasure as students in the more
traditional intellectual sense. Even those who are drawn to the eastern
ways of meditation and pursuit of inner peace seem to find conflict between
thinking and feeling. The former valued as superior to the latter pervades
our human consciousness. If I have accessed a single point of divergence
between what I propose as a way to the light, and what has come before me,
is that few can find the inner faith to step away from that conditioned
honoring of intellect, and allow the feeling process to take its rightful,
significant place in the process of spiritual development. If intellect is
male, linear, directed and focused, feeling is open, wide, female, intuitive
and flowing. To embrace a state of balance, where the two forces work in
harmony, is a crucial element in the process of being the light.
Many spiritual traditions propose that awakening is an intellectual pursuit,
and the process of achieving it one of tremendously complicated steps.
Language is derived from our intellectual need to separate and define
things. It the basis of how we know the outer world, the places we share,
the experiences we have. Words and scientific process both serve to
delineate and refine into smaller and smaller increments any topic of
discussion. (foot note chaos theory) While this skill most certainly
served humankind extremely well in our creativity and invention for our
success as a species, we are now at a place of new opportunity. Having
nearly mastered the art of refinement and delineation, the scales become
nearly imbalanced in that direction, and we are called upon to to view our
planet as a whole, for our own survival, to view the similarlities between
and amongst our mingled cultures rather than the differences, and to come to
know our inner selves from the heart, and not simply the mind.
The traditions which evolved language, and the descriptions of how the
energy moves in the body, are not necessary for an awakening. I had never
heard of a chakra system before I raised my kundalini, or any other of the
many explanations such as "three channels of the spine." An enormous volume
of literature serves to massage the intellect and prolong the process of
learning to "be" since the healing of emotions is a feminine feeling
process. For the masters who came before, all attempts to bring their
experiences to the world of intellect was necessary in order for them to be
heard. So extreme and different were their knowings, that few would ever
fully embrace the possibility. Today, however, many are called and drawn to
a path of enlightenment, many have accessed experiences that were known only
by the elite masters, many are struggling to find that balance between
living and loving in an enlightened space while housed in a world of
intellectual and material supervaluation.
(How TO)
Clearing the mind with meditation may begin this journey, but many find this
alien to their way of living. One sets limitations on oneself when one
requests the knowing without the meditation. There is an alternative to
silencing the mind in meditation. This will be determined by you. What do
you do in your life that is so absorbing as to allow you to forget time? Do
you find peace when you run, climb mountains, listen to music, paint, garden
or something else. Find this place of silence and by mindful living and
honoring the importance of your specific Way, expand and bring that silence
into your daily existence. The intellect and the constant defining of self
with repetitive thoughts is all that stands between your Self and a state of
being. In other words, you have a choice to experience life with the wonder
of a child, and may do so by asking the intellect to serve as a silent
observer of self in an ongoing, moment to moment, living with awareness
meditation. This may sound easy, but it requires diligence in observing self
and how the self interacts with the world.
Ego
Here it is appropriate to define ego in the context that I use it.
First, the Ego is the verbal self. Language, and everything communicated
through speech, writing, or the memory bank, evolves through that medium
defined as the intellect's definition of "Self. " It is the most obvious
manifestation of Ego. The internal library which carries all the visual
scenes of our earthly existence, and Ego-allowing reruns of the past, which
is important
in the Ego's role of reinforcing self- image. Our emotional history, both
from the immediate life-history and the
inherited, past-life, emotional history, combine to form our
basicpersonality. This part of the is Ego is that which most of us believe
is unchangeable. In order for a human to evolve to a state of enlightment,
the Egomust shift, to allow a change in how we define ourselves. All three
catagories must be dealt with. I find the best first step is to find the
space between words, or a form of meditation. I advocate meditation without
a mantra. A mantra occupies the intellect and allows easy access to an
altered state. However, when the intellect is occupied, intellect best
serves the process of being. It becomes a passive, but fully aware, observer
of the exploration of the inner self.
The human intellectualual fallicies of judgement and differentiation do not
exist in a silent mind. They are replaced by the beautiful, loving energy of
divination within. A danger that resides here is that the Ego attaches to
the experience of the Divine Energy and identifies itself as Divine, without
the emotional healing of the human state having occurred beforehand.
Behavior, or use of divine energy, and knowledge are then tainted by the
interpretation of the Ego who is ruled by unhealed emotions.
In the case of an awakened kundalini, the individual can use female energy
to enhance male energy, but cannot be fully be in touch with, or enhance the
feminine with the male energy. The unbalanced Guru has awsome personal
power, but in truth is nothing if not balanced by his/her female side.
The emotional world must be examined with a clear intellect. Damaged
emotional responses need to be identified, relived, and felt on a cellular
level, and then released to spirit. An acknowledgement that PROCESS is the
key to love, (not purification of the self, or ego, or being) sets one free
to the flow and life/love of the feminine. A freed emotional being is
grounded, and the freed emotions become the tenticles of awareness of the
world. The individual is free to be grounded so he/she can become fully
integrated with the feminine/dark/processing/universal aspects of self.
The visual record, without the noise of the intellect constantly defining
itself and preventing self-examination, fades and loses
importance. Enlightenment is not the destruction of Ego, but rather
surrendering one's Ego to the Soul and the Soul's Divine purpose.
The role of the intellect becomes one of service, with an awareness that the
intellect is not Soul, but a passive observer and helpmate, honed and
skillful in its role of liasson between physical reality and Soul energy.
Unattatched to belief structures intellect identifies patterns of emotional
behaviour investigating the origin of the trauma causing compulsive
behaviour from this life or inherited through the DNA and orcastrating the
reexperience of the emotion and surrender freeing ego to feel in the moment
in an ongoing State of Being. The Ego is not the enemy of enlightment, but
a beautiful instrument
to be tuned, designed and played to your liking.
We can release our souls from the prison of our beliefs. Without the walls
that confine us, we can soar and expand into universal truth. To know the
divine is to know that we know nothing. This is why a truly enlightened soul
is humbled in awe. Here, our knowledge is unified, speechless, simply a
state of "being". All beings, enlightened or otherwise, are limited by their
personal ability to surrender their traditions, heal their emotions, and
entrust their beliefs to the Divine.
"Every cell in your body is part of long term memory, and not just the
traumatic emotional trauma but also joy and movement memory as well as sound
and speach patterns. Even our spiritual capacity is inherited through DNA.
Information stored in the DNA is both the emotional memory of our ancestors
(of which we have more the a billion in just a thousand years at 25 years
per generation.) This memory is called Karma in Buddism. All of this stored
emotional trauma must be healed in order to be" Fully Present" in a divine
state of BEING. When emotions are freed from trauma they are the feelings we
then can utilize as extentions of discernment in the surrounding energy
fields."
I believe that emotional healing is the key to an easy transiton to an
enlightened state. One can deal with intellect by either taking on a belief
system or self discovery but our compulsive habits are still their. Willing
them away leaves one in awkward stae of disharmony and inauthentic
behaviour. Our emotional patterns are as much part of our ego as is the
intellect, but they are more difficult to heal. Compulsive emotional
behaviour is formed in the years before our intellect is formed and lessons
have no intellectual records. We do have records though and they are stored
within the DNA... Every cell in your body is part of long term memory, and
not just the traumatic emotional trauma but also joy and movement memory as
well as sound and speach patterns. Even our spiritual capacity is inherited
through DNA. Information stored in the DNA is both the emotional memory of
our ancestors (of which we have more the a billion in just a thousand years
at 25 years per generation.) This memory is called Karma in Buddism. This
theory of memory being passed genetically would explain past lives with a
vast pool of lives available within each of us for distinct memory
retrieval. The burning of karma then would make a great deal of sense to
me.. All of this stored emotional trauma must be healed in order to be"
Fully Present" in a divine state of BEING. When emotions are freed from
trauma they are the feelings we then can utilize as extentions of
discernment in the surrounding energy fields. The extention of those
capabilities is directly in proportion to our healed versus unhealed
emotions. There is no limit of time and space these feelings can penitrate.
Intellect must undergo a transformation in order to be present. A trance is
one way to bypass the intellect and emotional blockage for short travels in
a state of being. Lack of retention of the lifes lesson is a drawback of
this technique. Much more but that should help you understand where I am
coming from. I am having a meeting On Aug. 19th with four of the people I
have helped with their emotional process to create a curriculum on emotional
healing which includes identifying the source of the emotional pattern
reexperiencing the trauma in a full body awareness in a safe invironment and
consciously as an adult releasing this stored emotion. We will also work on
helping intellect deal with surrender of beliefs protecting the emotional
patterns of the individual. In order to become a passive observer and
interpeter of truth from the inner intelligent life force it is critical
that the individual surrenders his/her judgements and beliefs. Truth can be
distorted in the same way a scientist might distort his findings in an
experiment by unconsciously designing his techniques and area of study to
justify hoiw he believed in the first place.
Emotional experiences in life are recorded on a cellular level, both
pleasent and pleasurable experiences and unpleasent painful emotionally
damaging experiences. Each cell is a living entity and each individual cell
commits its life span to a specific task as part of a comunity, i.e. your
body.
We know that our bodies are constantly rejuvenating themselves as cells
die and new cells replace them. I conclude from logic and observation that
cells pass on the emotional trauma genetically to the cells that replace the
dying cells. The logical conclusion, to my mind, is that the process of
reproduction also passes on the emotional life of the parents to the
offspring(this perhaps is a different way to define karma ) On a broader
scale, we must logically see that we are the accumulated experience of all
our ancestors. This would explain the extensive memories of past lives
which are recorded and passed on within our genes. If we go back just fifty
generations, we have 1,025,876,889,780,224 direct parental ancestors and
that is one massive pile of pain and love all mixed together.
I have observed directly total recall of events over thirty years prior
where the pain and events are re-experienced as if they were just taking
place. The entire body is completely involved in this reliving of pain.
For instance, an adult who was raped anally as a child and buried the
experience, eventually relives the event, not as a visual memory or
intellectual knowledge, but as a pain in the anus so intense as to cause
them to go to the hospital, only to find nothing physically wrong. The
memories are cellular, and as such are hard to address until relived.
Physical, emotional, and memory-based blocks are a protective, survival
habit which keeps the cellular memories from arising.
I see that every cell in the human body has the full emotional memory
of stressful events. Every cell in your body is part of long term memory,
and not just the traumatic emotional trauma but also joy and movement memory
as well as vocal sounds and speech patterns. Even our spiritual capacity is
inherited through DNA. Information stored in the DNA is both the emotional
memory of our ancestors (of which we have more than a billion in just a
thousand years at 25 years per generation.)
This memory is called Karma in Buddism and original sin in
Christianity, although the definition of Karma covers a far broader scope..
There is no doubt that Kundalini is a driving force behind burning of
karma. Having had the experience of holding back the process of healing I
know that the full power of Kundalini is available to one who refuses but
the potential of being imbalanced and having painful lessons designed by
Goddess to draw the attention to the resistance caused by emotional
patterns or beliefs to healing. All of this stored emotional trauma must be
healed in order to be" Fully Present" in a divine state of BEING. When
emotions are freed from trauma they are the feelings we then can utilize as
extentions of discernment in the surrounding energy fields." In my
experience of bliss, the energy we call Goddess is the life force. The
expanded state of consciousness would not be experienced as bliss or
anything if we could not feel. Therefore, I would venture to say that the
enlightened experience, in a fully expanded consciousness, is the same as
that of the life force which manifests on Earth as feelings or Goddess
energy. Through the feelings of the life force we experience the energy of
God, or the Sun. I can feel, "in a trance so deep, that I cannot experience
the body", and therefore the experience of feeling does not require the
existence of body but rather feeling is a manifestation of soul as a spark
of the life force.
God energy is an all pervasive love and is the energy of all that
exists, but it lacks the personal quality of the Goddess energy or the life
force. The Sea for instance will support you and carry you but it has no
compassion for your life or death. The Goddess is compassion and caring.
She looks after you through her many energetic beings and oversees your
emotional lessons in our struggle to enlighten our DNA. She provides the
classroom and reflections of our intellectual intent and our emotional
compulsions so that the unconscious response to stimuly can be made
conscious and surrendered to Goddess in lifes journey to create enlightened
matter imbued with cosmic wisdom. She is not the intellectual presense but
she is the accumulated wisdom of survival and her language is the language
of feeling and love in the magnificent wonder of life. Without her God could
not be felt. In her crystalized form she is the spontanious decision to
flight or fight and the cumpulsive behaviour that plaques most of us.
Without her humankind is capable of horrendous acts against fellow living
creatures without feeling the victims pain. The intellect has no inner voice
of compassion but only the flawed process of analitical reason which has not
the capacity for being love.
My best interpetation, from my observations of genetic
reproduction, and bringing together what information I have gleened from
scientific data, as well as my perspective as an enlightened being, prompts
me to propose these premises. That the memory capacity of the DNA to store
emotional events in every cell, for the life time of the organism, pass on
this stored information to the next generation, and have system wide recall
of emotional events is the modality of of the life force for learning over
generations as well as preprograming for the best instantanious responses
for survival tested through each succeeding generation.. Emotional trauma
also leaves the body vulnerable to viruses which are emotional oportunists
and attracted to and sucsessful in emotionaly weekened systems especialy
organisms that have endured long term stress. These viruses can change
genetic structure creating mutations of of which the succesful mutations
become our evolution.
In all animal species except humans we call the genetic memory
instinct. DNA is passed both within the cell divisions within each
individuals body and through breeding. All the various aspects of
emotional existence is perpetuated through emotional memories as the body
regenerates and propagates. Emotions then are feelings frozen in time by
the DNA in an exact memory of an emotional event. In the case of traumatic
emotional memories of similar events in the future they reinvorce and
broaden the scope of triggers for post traumatic events. Without treatment
emotions can ruin the quality of life but with comprahensive retrieval of
the origin of traumatic events thes patterns can be released and no longer
create havoc for the Victims. Freed, emotion becomes a conscious
communication with the living planet, as well as non verbal exchange between
people, animals, and plants.
I wish to introduce knowledge gained through years of breeding
horses and observing the emotional lives of these wonderful animals. By
deduction, as well as by observing offspring of emotionally damaged
stallions, it is apparent that emotional damage is passed on genetically. A
stallion who has received emotional healing from past traumas will pass on a
healed genetic memory to his off spring. Most mares are artificially
inseminated so the young never meet their fathers who might be 2000 miles
away. Stallions are selected to pass on dominate genes the personality
traits often come through. I believe that the mares also pass on cellular
memory, but as they share months together and the foals are socialized by
the mare, it is a harder scenario to determine. Science tells us that our
cellular structure is completely new every few years so it follows that
emotional trauma is passed as new cells form and the evidence is in the
involvment of every cell in the reexperience of emotional trauma in post
traumatic stress. My deduction from here is that emotions and feelings are
the engine for genetic selection and the process of evolution. Perhaps this
is accomplished by the body allowing disease in the form of viruses since
viruses respond to emotional stress and create genetic anamolies.
The Sun is loving energy... the life force is the feeling of that
love. Feeling is the realm of the creator of life and is full of love and
compassion for her creations. As part of that creative intelligence, we are
able to create our experience on this Earthly plane through both the
negative and the positive experiences we manifest. And these emotional,
physical and intellectual experiences appear to be for our ever-expanding
development and understanding of our world... to answer the why of our
existence. The intelligence in a single cell is still beyond the learning of
man and his intellect. To experience Goddess in her fullness, the surrender
of intellect and silence of the mind appears essential.
Intellect plays the roll of passive observer with the responsibility
of forming an intellectual pathway for future explorers of the creation. The
intellect of man is both the highest achievement and the most limiting
factor. As a mirror of self and communicator with others in tribal groups of
language and the ability to translate to other languages as well as the
understanding of the order of the universe through observation and math our
accomplishments are staggering. The limiting factor is that the intellect
with its capacity to catagorize and break every experience both physicaly
and intellectuly into the smallest concievable partical has allowed a
separation from the life force, No longer do we have to feel the oneness of
ourselves with all other beings because we are each unique with our
individual egos as our identity and all other entities are other. We have an
order of loyalties defined by our differences and it is inconceivable for
our ego to except that any other people or animals with different beliefs
are the same. We are even willing to exterminate or dominate any being that
is other. We have in fact through our language and beliefs created our
horror on this Earth instead of using our intellect as a tool for the
betterment of all life we use it as an excuses to destroy.
Our intellects can be used as tools in the surrender to the Goddess or
oversoul, and not as absorbed and identified with "I" but as a universal we
, in a revolutionary shift could transform this planet into a loving
paradise. Every species or form of living matter is made up of living cells,
individual with the feelings of the creator who band together in full
cooperation, to form organisms, and to them the organism as an entity might
well be perceived as god and the combined individuals consciousness form an
oversoul of that species with a structured knowledge of its purpose,
emotional code of behavior, and reproduction. The combined energy of all
oversouls is the Goddess or life force. Each species can change the genetic
structure of itself in order adapt to changing environment. If any species
becomes to specialized it becomes vulnerable to extinction. Our place as a
highly evolved species is to care take with Love and Compassion The Earth is
the home of our oversoul and that of all other living creatures. Our highest
crime is the destruction of our environment for if we and many other life
forms cannot adapt to the changes of our own creation, other species will
evolve to take our place. Don´t be fooled by endless rhetoric. laugh and
don't take yourself or anybody else seriously
The only information that I take for truth is the knowing in the
light. I am fully aware that anything I write, or anyone else writes, or has
written, is open to the interpretation by the reader, and so the reader is
reading hearsay which is not even acceptable in our legal system. If you
wish to know truth, learn to silence the endless thoughts and seek Goddess
within yourself in the silence, without judgment, and with an open mind.
Why should you experience Goddess second hand? Goddess certainly will share
with you, and best of all Great Spirit or Goddess lives in you, so you don't
have to go out and seek. I know you will find pure compassionate
nonjudgmental " Love" within yourself. Why ruin the perfection of Cosmic
Love with trying to discribe it. The depth of love of which I speak is not
found within the confines of words. A person with conditional love for
their children would ,when asked would tell you in all sincerity, that they
believe they love with all their heart and to them it is the truth. A killer
might believe that he kills out of love. Love is a feeling to be known with
the heart not a book. Loving is to be lived as the heart dictates.
I have found that the eye communication is one of the deepest forms of
sharing. It is very important to have the permission of the other person as
there are no secrets left between you after gazing into each others souls.
It is for me more intimate then touch when you and your spiritual partner
are not lovers. Have you ever tried putting your foreheads together? The
bond feels like the gravitational pull of the earth and takes considerable
effort to pull back as well as being Divinely pleasurable.
Manifesting a common reality that we believe in, is the common
denominator of mankind´s existence. We create our world of folly and with
conscious "being" we will create a new world. Any belief system defined by
words is a creation of man and appears real to the believers only because
they cannot see beyond the confines of those beliefs. They create and
observe only those events that agree with that reality created by their
common beliefs. Science is limited by Chaos as are all other intellectual
pursuits of knowledge. The path of change for humanity is to heal the
damaged emotions from the violent history of mans existence. Man is a
creation of love in divine love. Man is separate from this only by his
beliefs and they are perpetuated by the emotional damage caused by those
beliefs both in this lifetime and all the preceding generations.
Truth can only be experienced. Any interpretation of truth in verbal
form is a bastardization of truth. If you believe you have found the way you
have missed it. Truth does not exist within the confines of the intellect.
The intellect can observe truth and experience truth but interpretation of
truth is a prison for the individual believing in that interpretation.
Divine experience cannot be confined within the limitations of intellect and
to believe that any system is anything more then a path is THE GREATEST
FOLLY OF MANKIND. The assumption of ego that there exists an "other" is
behind every act of violence of mankind.
Love,
Guy
Copy write
September 28th 2004
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