To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/09/28 14:08
Subject: RE: [K-list] Full Moon?
From: Earth Angel
On 2004/09/28 14:08, Earth Angel posted thus to the K-list:
To All of you who have been moved to send comments and love to me:
WOW! Thank you so very much!
How can I feel lacking, when there is so much love all around me?
It is impossible to have a void, when it is immediately filled up
by those around me that have already moved through their dark
night of the soul and help make a path of light for me.
I will print out all of the emails that have been composed and I
will ponder their content once again before I move on.
Something very odd happened in regards to all this...
This is what I am aware of: Two days before all this feeling of
lack started to fill me, I had a day filled with very active "K" energy,
heat, stirring and odd vibration in my left nostril that caused me
to sneeze many times over the last three days.
The first day, I began
to feel ill or a little off. I was listless and tired and just not myself.
I spent most the day curled up with a blanket and a book and videos.
It felt like a cold was starting to settle in.
On the second day, I had
nothing more than an infernal tickling vibration in my nostril. The only
thing that would stop the sneezing would be to stick something in my
nose to secure the place of irritation.
The third day, the sensation
was still there, but not as strong. Just occasionally uncontrolled
sneezing and by the evening of that day, the issues and the beginning
of the feeling of loneliness started in.
By the next morning, upon
awakening I was in the throws of feeling this dark night of the soul and
wondering what had happened, but feeling totally alone, helpless and
depressed. It was overwhelming, and did not have much of a starting
basis for such a deep emotional fervor that was cursing through me.
So I reached out for help from the K-list, not knowing really where to
turn, just knowing I needed help fast. As your comments started to
come across my computer yesterday I started to cry and I sat here
for an hour and the tears poured out uncontrollably. After that,
I felt very tired, but not in a deep hole anymore.
I've known depression over the years, but this was unlike any depression
I have ever known. "It" came swiftly, settled in to the point of dark
despair and passed through almost as quickly as it came, to leave me
feeling at peace again.
I feel like I've experienced something that was almost out of my control.
I am left in awe of it and feeling an odd sense of
gratitude to have been able to experience this polarity of feelings.
I think I'm going to live!! Wahooooooooooooooo!
Sue/EarthAngel/FlyingWoman :-)
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