To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/09/13 20:20
Subject: [K-list] World is Pain-Earth is Love
From: Diamondsutra
On 2004/09/13 20:20, Diamondsutra posted thus to the K-list:
Thank you God for the Earth, all this natural nature that cometh from the
mystery. Earth is truly love and without it -geez- how would I bear the pain
that seems to just run into me when I go into the man made world--the banks
and roads and electric wires and pollution and noise and on and on and on.
I am not complaining...this is my life and all I see a reflection of my
love or my self. And also I have not yet found the knack of going into the
world and coming out pain free. I must mention however, that while it is
happening my journey in the world---usually that is, most often,---the dance,
the encounters with other beings in form, other earthlings is so very sweet
and lovely that I don't notice the pain coming in.
Its only that night, when I am alone, back at home, on the earth, in the
silent darkness that I sense the buzz, the electric ..."hurry" that is
in "me" in my sweet body. The buzz, and the knots and the contraction. By
the next morning, after somehow I manage to sleep (yes..I am still using
sleeping pills. all I can do is trust that this too will change) by the next
morning the tension and knots and buzz have all been absorbed by my willing
open heart and pours outta me (my body) in tears and tears and catapults of
tears intermingled with seizures of laughter(thank you thank you thank
you)...until I am empty once again, however long it takes (sometimes a few
days of this).
And once again my sweet body is one with the earth, the very same as the
earth, natural and in me, inside there is just this pulsing stillness.
Sometimes, like yesterday an encounter with an earth man hurts..a surprise
meteor out of nowhere, some one I don't even know ...out of space and that
too has to be let go, while I ingest and absorb the lesson of it, hidden like
a jewel inside the pain.
all this is teaching me.........how to.....disappear more and more.
Even though I have been overwhelmed by all that is happening, k-list is
in my heart and I send love and blessings.
deesutra
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