To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/08/30 18:07
Subject: Re: [K-list] greetings
From: Rick Mayweather
On 2004/08/30 18:07, Rick Mayweather posted thus to the K-list:
>i see yoru point about the emotion and intellect taking over. its been a
>while now that i've been trying to talk to people with those forces
>controlling
>me. its sorta screwed up. heh.
>
>my heart left me when i went deeply into the K awakening. sometimes i think
>i
>only do this because of stuff that hurt me in the past. those trauma's
>definatly have effected me in ways that i dont really understand , but i
>know they
>are not the true me.
They are not but it's important to accept, to just say yes. When we say no
we create darkness. The divine is in and is part of everything.
Those old days are over.
>i remember when i first 'felt the love'. it was a day afterthat where 'the
>love' , left me. i think it was finding something new in my 'heart'. being
>able
>to answer the unanswerable question. that trek , the voyage that would take
>me
>so far away from my trauma that i would not have to worry about it.
The traumas are over.
>i've been digging into my dark energies and trying to find what i believe.
>i
>keep coming to the idea that all of this spiritual awakening is a response
>to
>the state of the world. as you said , the life you live is a refection of
>who
>you are inside. therefore , the earthlife is a reflection of how everyone
>is.
>so how do i stop that cycle?
Dig into the light. Learn compassion for yourself, it's the key. With
compassion you will find your true state which is yourself, a being of love.
When you find yourself then you will see love externally as well as
internally.
>so basically, in response to your email, i am seeing that there is this
>huge
>ol' trauma that hurt me so much, that i chose insanity over facing it. hmm.
>that's seriouse and screwed up.
Let go of the past. Give it a big hug and say thank you for taking you to
where you need to be and let it go, the past is over. It's finished. A new
day is dawning, the light is opening you up in new ways.
>does that sound right? i've been trying to clear bad energies , but there's
>definatly something there that is like a pit in my stomach. just as i have
>been
>hurt , in my ways , i will hurt others. that's sorta the mentality of being
>programmed by the dark energy. the identity of what a dark energy is can
>also
>be a dark energy.
You don't need to clear those bad energies, because they don't really exist,
just in our imagination. Let go, float with the stars, fly on the wings of
an angel and sit on the moon. The new day is dawning my friend.
>how am i to relax, be cool, attractive, funny, smart, productive, happy,
>and
>posotive while my flow is so disturbed that i can hardly hold a
>conversation
>without thinking about how offensive i must be in my appearance and how no
>one
>would want to be friends with me?
Learn compasssion for yourself, go easy, take it easy, you are important.
Your not offensive to me, and your not offensive to you. When you can
awaken the witness and keep an eye on your thoughts then you can learn
compassion, and counter act every bad thought towards yourself with a loving
thought, the new existence you've been waiting for, is awaiting you. Then
you'll just be you, take a deep breath and let it all out, nothing really
matters, let go.
>yea... i guess that's my questoin..
>
>great email, namaste
>Patrick
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