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Recieved: 2004/08/26 01:34
Subject: [K-list] Fwd: new to list kundalini and insomnia
From: Diamondsutra
On 2004/08/26 01:34, Diamondsutra posted thus to the K-list:
Forwarded From: diamondsutraATnetidea.com
> Hello Paul:
>
> I can relate to your story. That symptom of sleeplessness is one that
> ruled my life in the early years of kundalini.
>
> I had been with Osho Rajneesh for 11 years, over-doing his many
> meditations, some incredibly active. Also I had been practicing yoga for a
> good 10 years everyday, as well as strenuous physical workouts and loads of
> dancing and then I did a lot of psychic readings in the afternoons. After
> osho died I was with Barry Long, in Australia, for 3 years by l991 when
this
> kundalini energy started running my life.
>
> The symptoms were rampant and took over my entire physical. Fortunately
at
> that time a woman M.D. who is a deep meditator came into my life and worked
> with me and identified the kundalini. She also had other kundalini
patients
> at the time. She has assisted me all these years and is now a doctor and a
> friend as well as a fellow traveller.
>
> The first 4 years the "symptoms" were so rampant that all I could barely
do
> was hang on, while slowing down and letting go. Every aspect of my life
> changed. Everything had to be let go of: expectations, work, love life,
> living space, sleep, eating and on and on.
>
> My will had to be surrendered entirely to God's will. Looking at it now
I
> can see that everytime the energy "stabilized" a bit I would then endeavor
to
> do some 'old" thing that I had done in the past and the symptoms would
> immediately "burn me up."
>
> I had found such a sweet stability and then last year I got involved in
a
> 5 month love relatedness in which I practiced tantrik love-making again
and,
> when that was over, the fire had returned and one its greatest symptom was
> sleeplessness.
>
> I have not had a natural nights sleep since my birthday late last
December.
> For a long time I was using chinese herbal sleeping pills. Right now I
am
> using the for me, "dreaded pharmaceutical" a muscle relaxer, flexoril. I
> also use chinese herbal medications all day to keep the fire down and to
ease
> the heart. I am also using chinese herbal medications for the over- taxed
> nerves, and for insomnia. I take these during the day but right now they
do
> not cause sleep. so I take the flexoril (1/2 tablet) before bed with a cup
> of tension tamer tea.
>
> I also have to be very quiet during the day, not see too many or most
times
> any at all people and stay off the telephone. If I do too much of the
> aforementioned, the energy "revs" particularly in my head.
>
> I would not mind the sleeplessness except if I don't sleep it feels the
> next day as though my head is going to blow off. I find I will finally
drift
> off into sleep if I don't take the meds around 4 am, but then I sleep all
day
> until 4pm the next day. I have consulted with different doctors on this and
> the consensus, after x-rays is---its energy. This from doctors who know
> nothing of "kundalini"
>
> For me this awakening is really walking the "razor's edge", continually
> requiring utter surrender to what is and keeping my own will and
willfulness
> out of life.
>
> The initial settling of energy required acupuncture needles regularly,
> this was the biggest help for me; as well as much massage, chiropractic,
> chinese herbs, long soaks in the local hotsprings, complete slowing down
and
> homeopathics. It appears to me that each being has to find their own way
> here, in relation to the energy, however, I trust this is of some help to
you.
>
> Lord knows I don't know what is going on but have endeavored to relate my
> story and my understanding of it in some way close to what happened using
> these words.
>
> I send this in case it is of any help to you.
>
> Love and blessings, deesutra
>
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