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Recieved: 2004/08/19 12:35
Subject: [K-list] Disturbing experiences
From: Heidi
On 2004/08/19 12:35, Heidi posted thus to the K-list:
Sounds scary Gustaf.
Maybe my own experiences can help.
Previous to my big "breakthrough", I too had very vivid, lucid and often frightening dreams. I later discovered these dreams to be manifestations or slivers of my own fears buried within my subconscious.
Eventually, I said, "Okay, I'll face ya, bring it on." During my first Kundalini wave, all these fears had made themselves "real" and were right in front of my face. I was horrified! Everything I'd ever been afraid of: losing my soul, hell, being nothing more than an alien experiment (this one is now particularly humorous to me), demonic possession, being murdered or raped...even smaller fears like fear of heights were made into images that appeared alive and all around me. Likened to the scene of hell in the movie, "What Dreams may Come" if you've seen that. The "human" logical facet of my soul was frozen in panic ready to fight or flight. (moreso ready to flight) But, something within me would not let me run. That would have stopped the flow of Kundalini. I knew I had to face them. When I said aloud, "I AM the power." Just like the scary devil in a child's room is made into nothing more than a pile of clothes when the light is switched on, the reality of my fear was made clear. There was NOTHING to be afraid of. My favorite words from Christ are, "Do not be afraid." You are eternal, you are almighty. Nothing in this world can harm you. Even if you die, you are not dead. So, do not be afraid.
I remember a similar feeling (the electricity). I felt it rush up my spine and crack through the top of my head. I could feel it splitting open my crown chakra. There was pressure just before it broke through. I think, perhaps, you are very near a new awakening.
I think the pressure is building up because the Kundalini is raising up and is getting "stuck" inside you. You need to allow that energy to flow out of your third eye. It seems it really wants to, do you think you may be holding it back for some reason? Is there something you don't want to see?
Do you think the dread you saw in the mirror may be fear of what's to come?
Love,
Heidi
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