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Recieved: 2004/08/10 02:18
Subject: [K-list] Sharing and the snake dream
From: Diamondsutra
On 2004/08/10 02:18, Diamondsutra posted thus to the K-list:
I just read a couple of sharings regarding the snake dream and am moved to
share mine. I've had kundalini since l991 and have learned over these years
more or less how to live with it. I am so much better now than I was in the
years between l991 and l995. And have had many bouts during the subsequent
years when kundaline ruled once again and i was helpless to do anything about
it, but crawled along on hands and knees, asking God for a bit of mercy.
I was so very surprised about-what?-maybe month and half ago, the past
seems like one big--gone...its hard to fix certain dates, when I woke in the
morning from a very vivid dream of a snake rising up behind me and opening
its head over my head like a cobra.
It was so very vivid and apparently real. I awoke crying, sobbing
actually. I had never taken to this thing about kundaline rising up the
spine. Particularly for women. And spinal rushes had never been one of
my "symptoms" although, crown energy, ringing ears, heat, diarrhea, profuse
bleeding, vomiting, inability to function, sleeplessness, etc. have been.
The dream brought with it a strong sense of "knowing" that yes, this is
kundalini. The me that i call I was humbled and diminished after that dream
and a new space of surrender replaced it. I experience grace with that dream.
On another subject, this year I'm unable to fall asleep since my last
birthday, actually, Dec. 27th. Christmas always brings with it a tremendous
amount of stress. I find it very difficult to have enough energy and money
to "play" Christmas, to buy and give or make and send, all those presents.
Since kundalini, I haven't been able to do any of the things I used to do for
money, at least not at the same level. I am on disability because of it. I
do manage to do a few readings and energy sessions which was my work before
but they come rarely and usually when i really need them. I ask existence
that if anyone needs what I do to bring them to me.
At any rate, I've been using sleep aids since that time, mostly chinese
medicine ones, although i sometimes use herbals ones and even temazepam, a
pharmaceutical. If I don't take a sleep aid, I don't fall asleep until
around 4:00 am and then I have horrible head ache at the base of my neck(head
feels like its gonna blow off) all the next day, plus I sleep till 4 the next
day.
So I take the sleep aid, but, when is it going to end. I was sleeping
easily before last summer when I had a five month love affair with a man, who
is not at all meditative but was loving. We made a lot of tantric love ,
which I discovered after it was over, re-awakened my kundalini and left me in
kundalini hell. He was a firey energetic do-er kinda guy who sometimes went
a whole 24 or more hours without sleeping and most often did not sleep til 4
in the a.m.
So now...I have this sleep less reality. Did I "catch it off him?". Any
comments will be welcomed.
sigh. This turned out to be a long message, didn't it.
Blessings, deesutra
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