To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/04/09 17:47
Subject: Re: [K-list] Does the Heart live on ?
From: Deepak Srinivasan
On 2004/04/09 17:47, Deepak Srinivasan posted thus to the K-list:
I guess Rick's question is more like this,
i will state how i feel or don't feel coz on some
level, i resonate with Rick
I know these truths with my mind...i know the
universal laws and the oneness intellectually, I have
learnt, again becoz of my own doing, wants
responsibility, the oneness
yet, the scars remain, i fear the power of my
thoughts, as i know i can hurt me more that i thought
i could...all those self inflictions of pain, self
loathing and hatred, arising out of my own illusory
belief of saperateness and lack of trust in divinity
within
the analysis has also killed me though....the more i
"try" to disengage, i go intoanother spin on the same
viscious cycles....
in the process i feel like the lower chakra functions
have died, including the heart...
i feel nothing, not eve music which seems banal and
repetitive, inducing no more, the same sounds of
ecatasy it used to...
being a biologist, i also beleieve that our body needs
to manifest the thought requirements and psycholgical
beliefs as molecules and cells with health or
disease...to make true to me, whatever i believed in
the past..and when it changes, due to changing belief,
one goes through the numbness...
but then, passion is also dead, the heart feels like
nothing really matters...who cares with all things
being perfect...why do i even matter here now...why
dont i just merge with the energy as i know the
futileness of the exercise...i seem to have finally
cracked the code and what remains now but to go
away....
and yet, i know that all's God, so i need to fully
honour the divinity by making love with the
universe...all the time...sexually, emotionally,
mentally and spiritually,
but i feel dead within, what do i use to emanate rose
light from within...
My choice in some weird way, to torment myself thus...
I accept....dont understand but accept.
My CHOICE.
May passion return to m y heart, my soul and may i
know my true essence, the manifest of which i see
everyday around me...
D
--- maz <mazATgreenwater.fsnet.co.uk> wrote:
>
>
>
> > my current belief is that nothing personal
> lives on.
> >There is only Consciousness which has manifest
> itself into this form, your
> >form, that form.
> >On death the me, the ego dies, and the maifestation
> becomes one again with
> >God.
>
> snip
>
> . You could debate that the soul needs time to
> >become purified hence the reincarnations bur Ramana
> teachings sugest
> >otherwise.
> >Accepting that my thoughts on this are just
> thoughts but they explain a lot
> >and are very simple, a childlike belief.
>
> Hi Chris
>
> My personal experiences and beliefs are different.
> I believe that the
> "heart" and other aspects of the personality live on
> between lives. That is
> how mediums can bring messages from spirits, because
> those spirits retain
> their individuality while discarnate.
> At rebirth it's different of course.
>
> Yours
> Marion
>
>
>
>
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