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Recieved: 2004/04/08 02:42
Subject: RE: [K-list] COOL experience!
From: Rich
On 2004/04/08 02:42, Rich posted thus to the K-list:
Thanks for the interesting report.
I first thought of Sahaja Yoga when I read this. I remembered how they had
described K as been a cool energy when I attended one of their events out of
curiosity.
Before, I had known K as a warmth or heat as it pressed on blockages or
later with the effect of Tummo as stuff gets burnt. I'm speculating that
anger or frustration (maybe suppressed) may contribute to a hot feeling.
Last night I was feeling very hot in my head (too much thinking and working
till 1:30am). I decided to rummage about for the cool snake. It's there! It
appears to start at the left at the base of my spine. I worked with it to
feel it more fully and had a sort of 'flooded' experience of K right through
me, forgetting everything (at least for a while), in a balanced and calm
way.
Nice experience :)
rich
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> Sat. night I figured out what has been going on with me, and it is the
> COOLEST thing!
>
> I'm going to be presenting a weekend intensive Kundalini tantra
> workshop in Calgary in June.
> www.kundalini-teacher.com/tantra.html
>
> I have not really done any major Kundalini workshops in person, since
> 1995. I've wanted to for the past few years, but could not seem to get it
> together.
>
> I've done some smaller events, but most of my work has been online. I
> used to be onstage a lot, as a comedienne, an actor and after that, often
> presenting workshops and doing activism for sexual freedon, but since
> 1996
> I've mostly been a net-geek hermit. I've gained 40lbs and lost a lot of
> muscle tone in the past few years at my desk, aged considerably. That
> would not be important to some folks, but for me it was sadness. I missed
> my old body and looks, no matter how hard I tried to surrender it, and
> accept it, I just couldn't... and whatever I did to try to diet and
> exercise did not seem to help any.
>
> Planning for the workshop intensified last month, and part of it for me
> has been a bit of inner reshaping, thinking about the workshop content,
> but
> also about how I want to be, for it. Meditating, visualizing, waiting for
> inspiration. In the past, even doing the videos for FST, I had problems
> with too much amitra flowing from the energy of the recipients, choking on
> it and having coughing fits, and sometimes emotional chaos from the
> empathy. Wanting to let go of those side effects.
>
> Also wanting to be in shape for it, physically. Day 1 of the workshop
> is 9am to 9pm, and that is quite a stretch to be onstage, speaking and
> radiating Shakti... that is part of what motivated the excessive pilates
> session... but I've also just had a real craving for exercise, lately... I
> chalked it up to an annual spring thing. I usually get a little hyper in
> spring, sap rising...
>
> I was feeling a lot of sort of free floating anxiety the past few
> weeks,
> just a little feeling in my belly that something was wrong.. guilt?
> misgivings? impending doom? Not severe, but nagging and chronic. High
> earth energy bringing up stuff? Applying gratitude for the cleansing
> release seems to make it better for a while. My appetite has mostly
> disappeared, I assumed it was because I tend not to eat when nervous.
>
> Thurs-Sat I was working on preparing flyers and posters to ship to
> Calgary, and everything that could go wrong, did... hundreds of pages
> ruined by printing problems, etc. so that I had to do the same work over
> and over again to get the quantity I needed. My not quite healed neck and
> shoulders getting really stiff and sore from folding hundreds of flyers.
> It
> made me wonder if it represented a bad omen for the
> workshop... Surrendered it repeatedly, it just Is.
>
> Sat night after I finally finished, a friend came to visit, as he does
> every week and I asked him what he thought of the chaos... he could not
> get
> a read on it but when I showed him a flyer, the first thing he noticed is
> the energy of them! All the days of repeated attention had given them an
> impressive charge of Shakti... ah so! Perfection! Originally I had planned
> to get the stuff printed professionally, and doing so would have been
> simpler, but the results would not feel so blessed.
>
> We had a party invitation, a friend's housewarming. Good plan, for me
> to get out of the house and unwind. While there, I was having a need to
> stretch, a lot! Feeling tension unwinding in places where I had not
> noticed
> it before, like spots that I had not noticed had been stiff, for years!
> Felt sooo good to strech it out, as much as the social scene allowed.
> Really wanted to do some intense hatha yoga... craving it as I have not
> felt, in years.
>
> Driving home from the party, I recognised a pattern to all recent
> events... the problems with the flyers was an offering to Goddess of all
> my
> fears around the workshop, I had put them into the work. Energy is energy,
> the frustration at things going wrong was transmuted into a blissful
> Shakti
> charge in the paper.
>
> Making a paper sacrifice to the Goddess, the failed paper will go into
> the fire. While printing and folding and gluing, I had also been spending
> days focusing on the workshops themselves, and on the vessel, the actor's
> instrument.. how I want to present myself.
>
> Same with the odd floating anxiety recently, stuff coming up to be
> cleared... and a process of building, gathering *charisma!* Pure, sheer
> undiluted charismatic energy, to hold an audience attention, entertain and
> enlighten and flow abundant Shakti without getting stress from the karma
> feedback... Goddess reshaping me to be Her vessel!
>
> That triggered a cascade of insights..
>
> My physical and energy body is reshaping itself to go onstage!
> Effortlessly, naturally... The lack of appetite and craving for exercise,
> used to be normal for me! I remembered how it was, how I used to
> be... Feeling it return, I was so grateful and happy I nearly wept! All
> those years of frustration trying to locate the cause of my mysterious
> aging and weight gain, and the failed struggle to change... till now, and
> it is happening spontaneously, autopilot!
>
> As I was getting these realizations in the car, I got this energy
> rising... it felt like minty wintergreen and eucalyptus had been smeared
> down the inside of my thighs, all through my yoni, and in a band across my
> lower belly and hips. Cool energy, cold but not chilly uncomfortable like
> emotions releasing or an angry ghost, really pleasant! Minty fresh
> tingles,
> intense!!
>
> Over the next hour the energy gradually rose in classic K fashion,
> until it felt like I had a cool mountain glacier stream flowing up from my
> root chakra, inside my body and pouring out my mouth. Like my breath had
> become a snow fresh breeze, like those TV commercials for icy winter fresh
> gum where people blow frost onto a window.
>
> Gradually, the cool energy was flowing out my crown too, and the stream
> kept getting wider. It spread to the meridians and chakras in my hands and
> feet.
> This morning there is a taste of wintergreen in my mouth at the spot
> where my tongue naturally touches my palate, and the front of my chest,
> over the heart and thymus chakras, and down over my power chakra to
> second, feels minty cool and fresh. I cannot think when I have ever felt
> anything like it.
>
> I am feeling delighted and incredibly grateful for the changes Goddess
> has wrought within me, so that I may be Her perfect vessel. So funny how
> I
> struggled with aging, my weight and that stupid "Fat flush" diet, when
> deep
> inside I knew that when the time was right, my body would simply reshape
> itself, natural and effortless like it used to be. Ecstatic! : ) Goddess
> blessings on the workshops, they are going to be wonderful!
>
> So I'm wondering, has anyone else had this strange cool minty fresh
> toothpaste K? I know K is often felt as "cool breezes" and I've had that,
> but for me it has more often been heat, or tingles... never this intense
> minty cool thing. I like it!
>
>
>
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