To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/03/14 22:17
Subject: Re: [K-list] MEDS POLL
From: baf sffaw
On 2004/03/14 22:17, baf sffaw posted thus to the K-list:
baf sffaw <dontcare011ATyahoo.com> wrote:Hello, thanks for the replies.
amused wrote:
"if you are that disconnected to reality, maybe you do need some sort of
medication,other than what you are taking. Sounds like schizophrenia,
and isn't Zoloft an anti-depressant?
shine the light on your friend, and don't let him dump on you! none of
us are a trash can!"
I blame myself.
I woulden't say im disconnected from reality , i choose not to partake in
the common misconception of reality. Reality is objective , what you precieve of it is subjective.
You get what you put into things, this sounds like a mystical saying but there is absolute truth in it. If you are putting your life into what you think is life it becomes life (to you).
By saying its schizo (without even hearing what the voices say) is popping off
facts you've learned in a false reality.
Most schizo's have an imbalence in imagination , this often comes with an elevated consciousness , everything in the mind is amplifed (or atleast your more sensetive to it).
Two schizo's will not report the same experiences , kundalites on the other hand always report the same experiences (not the details of course). But every kundalite will hear the voices. (notice how i said "the voices" to try and make it even more mystical)
For instance, looking at a painting of a dead family member who has long been dead before i was born, a voice said "Baltimore".
I asked my father about the painting and where he was from. Baltimore.
I guess this is the part where i list all the great men in history who heard voices.
I'll skip it.
It is common for kundalites to see aura's , lights in the sky and dead people.
(see how i said dead people so bluntly to try and get that "damn this guy is crazy!" reaction)
I may have listed some abnormal reasons why i smoke marijuana and drink alcohol
on the weekends like many young people do , but i still retain the same reasons for doing it that they do. I like to get fucked up.
"if you are that disconnected to reality, maybe you do need some sort of
medication,other than what you are taking. Sounds like schizophrenia,
and isn't Zoloft an anti-depressant?
shine the light on your friend, and don't let him dump on you! none of
us are a trash can!"
Hehe i diden't mean that (the hehe makes me nice again) , i ment that he dumps his
emotional energy onto me (karma). He doesen't know he does it and niether does anyone else who are locked in the endless loop of karma exchange. And that i hear the thoughts in his mind long after he leaves. This is not reading his mind but reading my own since he has dumped a peice of himself onto me (atleast what he thinks is himself).
I ment that it makes me sick when he imploys subtlitys in his speech to try and form an image of who he wants to be in the eyes of otheres (like im doing now). That he thinks he can lie to me.
You gave a "damn this guy is fucked up! im glad im not like that but heres my advice".
projection.
http://www.kundalini-teacher.com/symptoms/symptoms.html
I completly blame myself for projecting helplessness.
I also blame myself for even thinking i need to share my thought masks with other people.
So this whole message wasen't directed twards you but twards myself.
In a world full of ignorant young souls i wear the fucking badge of honor to be considered disconnected.
What exactly is the point of sharing thought masks with other people, especially amoung kundalites. We're not going to know each other through examining each others thought masks. Just read me, my name is Patrick. i dont find it intrusive , i have nothing to hide.
Is it to see who can filter the truth through their ego the best and pick out fuck ups in each others duailty interpretations of the truth? (lobster). Or is it just because your bored.
I'm sorry , just take me off the list.
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