To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/02/23 23:31
Subject: Re: [K-list] journey
From: Druout

In a message dated 2/23/2004 11:57:11 AM Pacific Standard Time,
deepsrinATyahoo.com writes:
...
"I am scared of my own self. I somehow feel
that i keep tripping myself, like there is some mean
evil thing hidden within my own soul. I dont know why
i feel this but i do....and i try to overcome that by
feeling forced altruistic feelings for others....yet,
there's the altrusim..."

Dear Deepak,

I don't see any evil in you whatsoever! :))

But I have a question. How do you envision this thing you call evil? My
guess is it is "Fear." Fear actually feels "evil." It causes us to fight
against ourselves. Evil and good are simply concepts we grow up with.
Self-preservation and self interest are part of our make up and when we find it difficult
to ignore these elements of our personality, we can be pretty hard on
ourselves. Then when Kundalini makes us be supra aware of these conflicts, we tend to
form concrete beings out of these feelings/thoughts. That feeling of evil
is in part a way our ego protects us from moving too quickly.

You are young and haven't had time to come to terms with and forgive your
so-called "baser" instincts. There is nothing at all wrong for feeling wonder at
a new sense of power. Enjoy it! You are already aware of the pitfalls, and
therefore unlikely to abuse it to any dangerous extent. But I would suggest
you try to keep functioning in the day to day work world. :)

Give yourself a little leeway, and a little time! There is no hurry!
Existence is to be enjoyed.

Love, Hillary

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