To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/02/15 23:58
Subject: Power chakras unfolding. (was Re: [K-list] maintaining energy)
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2004/02/15 23:58, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 04:09 PM 10/02/2004, Morgan Kochel wrote:
>On Feb 10, 2004, at 6:51pm, Deepak Srinivasan wrote:
>
>>I have been very active in my solar plexus after the
>>awakening....I work thru the rational/reasoning level.
>>I think my awakening occurs thru this level as it
>>speaks to my entire fear bodies at other levels
>>assuring them of the light.
>
>I've been feeling bouts of irritability (see above) and anger off and on.
Yeah, we all noticed that about you... :) :) :)
... and nobody minds.
There is tolerance for how people may act out in the awakening process
of chakras being cleared. This is the oldest kundalini list on the
internet, we have seen it all before... no big deal, just the awakening
process unfolding...
... which in itself, is unspeakably beautiful, to those of us who find
such beauty in it that we are willing to devote the time, money and energy
to nurturing a space for it to be shared.
> Would this be related to the solar plexus, or the first chakra?
It is the power chakra, at the solar plexus.
The issues you are dealing with, that you write about in this post and
others, are power chakra issues.
The issues of the power chakra are:
1) Personal power. Self confidence. Breath of life, it regulates chi.
Power chakra problems can sometimes be felt as an inability to take a full
breath. It feels like there is a tight band, like a corset around the
bottom of the ribs.
Control dramas are types of conflict. They live entirely in the power
chakra, and they are vampirism motivated by hunger for life energy. Used
by people who are not adequately fed by source, from within. The control
dramas are how people suck power from others for survival because they do
not have enough of their own. Most all conflict is based in this. Scarcity
leads to war, even if the scarcity is illusion.
2) The power chakra holds the sense of personal boundaries, that are of the
body. (spirit has none, infinite) When one is grounded, the power chakra
will let you know if your boundaries are being invaded, or if an action you
contemplate invades the boundaries of another.= karma. "Gut reaction" When
not grounded, the signals of this inner navigation system are distorted by
fear.
This navigation is also a type of lie detector, and will respond to
tell you whether something is true or not... even if the person who is
speaking, does not know what they say is not true. If you are not grounded,
it will simply react to your fear and ego issues. You cannot be angry and
grounded, at the same time. Anger, and irritability is a type of fear.
Control dramas invade boundaries, or are an effort to defend them.
Defense is not really an issue, unless there is scarcity of power. With
abundant chi, there is less need to use, or engage in them. (except for
fun! ) or defend against them. There is room to be generous, indulgent of
those who do use them... within limits. Feeding or rewarding bad behavior
is not wise.
3) The power chakra holds issues of hierarchies. Status games, who is
better than whom. Where the pecking orders live, who is superior, who is
the boss.
Again, you speak words of equality then in the same paragraph you spew
insults and promote your spiritual superiority.
You would not have to make those claims, if they were true! Not to deny
that you have some attainment... but being insulting in one breath then
saying everyone is equal in the next, is inconsistent, to say the least.
4) It is also the "astral" level, where control dramas are played out in
dreams and visions, imagination. The spirit worlds. It is where the type of
entities who claim to be a guide so they can manipulate you, live. They
will give you fancy titles and tell you that you have some heroic savior
mission, to persuade your ego to listen to them. A lot of new agey
lightworker, save the world channelled stuff comes from entities that live
on this level.
It is the level of free will based magic, which uses chi. Spiritual
boundaries, where you can draw a line of energy, a power circle or house
spell to keep unwelcome spirits out.
5) Free Will and Divine Will. Surrender to the Divine, letting go of ego
issues, including fear of how you may appear to others. Ego issues and
control dramas include efforts to control how you are perceived. The power
chakra is one place where fear emotions are felt. Upset stomach,
butterflies... racing heartbeat...
You already told us that surrender is hard for you... it is hard for
everybody! You speak the words of how surrendered you are, but
your actions show otherwise. You repeat your statements of being
surrendered over and over, like someone repeating an affirmation in an
effort to persuade themselves of something that they really do not believe.
Trying to persuade us, too...
You do not trust the process, you worry, you do not trust anyone, even
those who offer good advice.
The ones who help the most, are most likely to be targets of your
anger. The Japanese have 13 ways to say thank you, and every one translates
as "resentment of debt."
Resentment of debt is greatest, in those who feel indebted but cannot
pay... people in scarcity... why people hate the bill collectors.
My comment about your asking for help more often than you offer it,
triggered this issue in you, big time...but it is your issue. You are a
kundalini newbie, this list is intended to be a resource for awakened
people to get help, and newbies are not expected to have experience to be
able to offer advice to others.
My comment was really related to something a little bit different...
Your not reading the list guidelines is disrespectful of the
community. Your complaints about the reply-to "hassle" are an effort to
control, and show ingratitude to the list moderators, and those who have
helped you. "Resentment of debt."
Thing is, there is no debt. Gifts were freely given, no strings
attached. Compensation was not expected, it is already handled in the
larger picture of the list fulfilling its purpose to be a resource.
6) Karma and dharma: Free Will is Goddess law, and control games and
invading boundaries does not respect that, so such actions, or the thought
of such actions will set off a gut reaction that is the "karma alarm"...
navigation system. It will also offer the "Dharma signal", a nice glowy
warmth, when your actions are in alignment with Divine Will.
7) In this way, the power chakra is where the conscience lives... the
higher sense of right and wrong, which may sometimes contradict
conventional morality. Conventional morality varies considerably from
culture to culture, society to society... but the conscience is individual.
The power chakra is often where the soul is found.. the spark that is
the seed of consciousness... where it lives, in the body. The soul knows
the life purpose of the incarnation, and Divine will. It sits at the power
chakra because it is the boundary and unity place between the individual
and the One. Where spiritual worlds meet physical reality.
Often, in cases of trauma, or if the energy body gets very muddy, the
soul will leave the body, and so cannot be felt or found. This leads to
great instability, but a soul retrieval can remedy it quite easily.
I have also seen many cases where the individual cannot find the
soul... usually it is because as a child they felt the soul leave the body
during trauma, and so in an effort to protect it, they encased it in a
small steel ball inside themselves, like putting their greatest treasure in
a locked vault...then forget where they put it, and how to unlock it to get
it out again. In this case the soul is in the body, but it s guidance and
love cannot be felt through the armour.
6) The power chakra represents the "mental" level... intellectualizing over
intuitive knowing. Book learning over experience.
Intellectual knowing is not enough. You already know this, you said so
in one of your posts, but even knowing *that* intellectually, is not the
same as actualizing it...
"Know nothing, be everything. Be nothing, know everything."
Intellectual knowing is part of ego, it is prideful.
An ego that believes itself to be a "spiritual person" is still an
ego... and it can be worse, because with that ego the shadow side is more
deeply repressed than in an average person.
The "spiritual person" is unaware of what the shadow is up to, and to
maintain the self image, they project their negative perceptions onto
others... while managing not to notice their own controlling, abusive
behavior... or going even farther, and blaming others for how they feel and
react.
Nobody but you and Goddess can control how you choose to react to
anything. Blaming others for your reactions, is a vampiric power game, of
the power chakra.
Jung defined the shadow side as "What we think we are not", and
further explained how the repressed shadow self is projected outwards, onto
other people. You project anger, manipulation, control, superiority, etc.
onto me. I'm sure I am not the only one you did that too.
I'm not angry, or superior. I write from the Witness state, which is
devoid of emotion, but also very honest and direct. Telling it like it is.
From the witness, there are no boundaries, no sense of self... no ego. It
is a state of unconditional love... and to be in it, feels like nothing.
Peace, only. Unconditional love it unemotional, emotions would be a
*condition.*
I do have a talent for control and manipulation, of course! I was a
professional dominatrix for many years, earning my living from using the
talent, consensually.
I also have discernment in application... and a clear cut knowledge of
limits. I can tell you from enormous experience, exactly how much power I
have, to control how another person will think, react or feel:
NONE AT ALL.
Not unless they allow it, and even then the responses can be
unpredictable. Therefore I have no expectations of control. Similarly, I
know that someone blaming me for how they feel, is illusion, a power game
of victimhood. What they describe is impossible. Free Will is Goddess Law.
Morgan, yes, you are controlling and manipulative, and if you like I
will support you, by going though your last post, line by line and naming
each control drama you used.
Not as an accusation, control dramas are universal! Part of being
human, we all have them... just to support your process by providing a
reflection, so you can see, accept, integrate and have the choice to
change, or release. Recognising your control dramas, is essential to
clearing the power chakra. The longer you avoid that, by projecting, the
harder the chakra opening process will be.
My offer, is based in *compassion.*
Your awareness of those behaviors in yourself is repressed, because
the behaviors are not in alignment with your self image... so you project
them externally, and do not see your own games. The result is very
contradictory messages... which mask feelings of guilt.
Blame hides guilt. Guilt occurs, when actions do not match self image.
"I'm not the sort of person who would DO something like that!" Well, you
did, so you are. Accept it, integrate it. Grow.
You know, I see my younger self, in you... it moves me to compassion,
not anger. Namaste, love.
More than 10 years ago, I was a similarly self righteous aloof fluffy
bunny spiritual person who believed myself to be a gentle being... then, my
unfolding process brought my true spiritual orientation into the light, and
I had to accept the truth of being a dominant, sexual sadist. Integrating
that, was incredibly hard, painful.
When it occurred to me to wonder, how my repressed needs had been met
unconsciously, before they surfaced into my conscious awareness, I learned
something that was frankly, devastating to my "spiritual" self image.
Humbling, and painfully transformative.
I realized that I had often made a *choice* to feel victimized, because
the role of victim gave me a righteous, guilt free excuse for bloody
sadistic revenge, in the name of "justice." The righteousness of victims,
is the power (excuse) to wield the sword of blame and accusation.
All the guilt I had hidden from, by projecting it using blame, came
thundering back to me all at once and completely shattered my spiritual
pride, it truly humbled me... and although it was an incredibly painful and
difficult time in my life, it is also something that I am very grateful
for. It was a gift.
I know, most likely you have read this with a prickly attitude of anger
at my apparent confidence in my diagnosis of you. Your fear and prejudice
of my sexual orientation gets your back up with that "I'm not your
submissive" crap... I have not invited you to be my sub, it is an honor
rarely given. It is your stuff, your fear... it is not what I'm about. I
already have more people asking to be my sub than there are hours in a day,
and I certainly would not want to deal with such a difficult one as you
would be.
Truth is, I do know your spiritual progress better than you do. You do
not even know that your current stuff is all power chakra related.
I do not seek unquestioning obedience, from anyone. Not even my slaves.
I encourage discussion.
I encourage "thought experiments." Change your world by changing within
yourself". Try out a different belief for a few days and see what happens.
You can always change it back, if it does not work for you.
I illustrate this with a quote from Osho that appears on most of my
websites:
"Always remember, whatsoever I say to you, you can take it in two ways.
You can simply take it on my authority, 'Because I say so, it must be true'
-- then you will suffer, then you will not grow. Whatsoever I say, listen
to it, try to understand it, implement it in your life, see how it works,
and then come to your own conclusions. They may be the same, they may not
be. They can never be exactly the same because you have a different
personality, a unique being. Whatsoever I am saying is my own. It is bound
to be in deep ways rooted in me. You may come to similar conclusions, but
they cannot be exactly the same. So my conclusions should not be made your
conclusions. You should try to understand me, you should try to learn, but
you should not collect knowledge from me, you should not collect
conclusions from me. Then your mind-body will grow.
"My message is not a doctrine, not a philosophy. My message is a
certain alchemy, a science of transformation." >>>
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