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Recieved: 2004/01/21 17:18
Subject: [K-list] my journey
From: Guy Johnson
On 2004/01/21 17:18, Guy Johnson posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Morgan,
Here is a short version of my process of awakening in 1972.
The journey since is coming next. Every journey is as different as finger
prints and reflect the needs of the individual.
Hi my Freinds,
I am going to share a time line of my process in the order in
wich I experienced it. I'm not judging it or comparing it . I have
made dicisions based on fear that have prolonged my process but non of
it matters.
I had mystical experiences from my childhood primarly in the
woods and on the ocean. These were in the nature of everything glowing
with energy looking much like forest covered with ice in the sun. I
thought of it as normal. I was physicaly and emotionaly abused and
learned to detach from my body leaving me with an awareness of the
body as seperate from myself. I lived on an Island in Maine and when
I was not working I used a rifle for target practise. My father let
me take his rifle from his own chilhood at age nine and though it had
no sights I became very accurate forced to rely on an inner sense but
I was unaware that this was unusual. I learned to breath and sqeeze
the trigger between heartbeats. I practised throwing knives and
hatchets and eventualy blinfolded myself to make it more dificult
relying on the repitition of the motion. I built my first boat and
traps at nine and that summer learned to navigate with dead
recogning. I had a cumpass but learned to know where I was in the
fog. I just knew without question. At 16 I lumped [shoveled] the fish
out of fishing boats. The average catch was 100,000 lbs and I would
unload them in about four hours every night, even after school. I
discovered right ofF that I could leave my body, working up to my
armpits in fish and slime and sit on the hatch watching my body work
with no pain. I did this nightly but did not tell anyone as being
wierd in a fishing vilage is not welcome.
At seventeen I went to Europe for a year ostensibly as an
exchange student to Germany. I spoke little German and read when ever
I was not hitchhiking around every country that let me in. I was
seeking total freedom but came to relize that the very functions of
the body deneih freedom. Decided that I would seek to be free of the
physical limitations while still living and taught myself to silence
the dialog in my mind. I explored the new found capacity to feel the
energy within and learned how to manipulate it. My third eye was
fully awake and I could feel the intensity.
At twenty two I had the idea that I could create an orgasem using
the mind not masterbation mind you but concentration on the third eye
and the energy I had found just behind the genitals. I would go into
silense breathing long slow breaths holding on each end. At first I
would flik my attention back and fourth but eventualy I learned to
hold both in my will at the same time. I experienced bliss and
nothingness at this time but I felt there was more and pursued this
meditation all night long instead of sleeping. In the fall of 72 I
was doing my practise which I had by this time learned to do even
while sitting at the table whivh I was. I felt this energy come up my
spine and I experienced an feeling like before throwing up .There was
a metalic tast and a roaring in my ears as I lost control with my
will and this energy took over me. My whole being expanded into light
and I could not feel or move my body yet I experienced without
ejaculation pleasure beyond discription. My mind was still observing
but without any influence. The thought that I was dead flickered
across my mind but I didn't care. According to the witness who had
been talking to me I fell of the chair and laid there for half an
hour. I have no idea why she didn't call an ambulence but she said
she was frozen in panic. I was truly awakened at that point of time
though my Kundalini was awake and part of my life for years prior,
and I regard my life as pre awakening and post awakening. Iwill send
this now so I will not be timed out. Sorry there is no spell check
Namaste
Guy
Rainbow Spirit
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