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Recieved: 2003/10/26 20:50
Subject: [K-list] Fwd: Zen thoughts, Zen games
From: Mystress
On 2003/10/26 20:50, Mystress posted thus to the K-list:
Usually my responses to my clients are brief, speaking is faster than
writing and I prefer to address questions, within the session. This post,
requesting Tummo initiaton, is an exception. It turned out rather fun, and
I got consent from the recipient to share it with you, anonymously. Enjoy!
>Date: Sat, 25 Oct 2003 12:01:14 -0700
>To: deleted
>From: Mystress <teacher AT_NOSPAM kundalini-teacher.com>
>Subject: Re: Notification of Payment Received
>
>At 10:28 AM 25/10/03, you wrote:
>
>>I will be honest with you...
>
> Yeah, I hope so! :)
>
>>I am a reiki practitioner and beyond... or so I am
>>told that I am a chosen one and right now I am being
>>pulled in both directions - my energies and abilities
>>and well, the third dimension.
>
> Eh, best to let go of that whole "chosen one" thing... it is an ego
> game. More effective to see Goddess in All. Humility provides grace.
>
>>The night out drinking was me listening to my peers to
>>get back down to earth. It was me saying "Whoah!" to
>>the universe.
>
> Do intoxicants really help you get down to earth or are they a place
> to hide out? No judgments, I have a drop of bailey's in my coffee this
> morning, more for flavour than alcohol content... there is some chocolate
> in there too. Yum! :)
>
>>I have this ability to hold someone's hand and it
>>changes them.
>
> OK, I know how that is... but... in a holographic universe, every
> action and inaction spreads ripples... the difference is the perception
> of degrees of change, which is subjective... we only see a small part of
> the whole. Does your hand holding make bigger ripples than an autumn leaf
> falling?
>
>> I have these things... but what is
>>happening is I am blocked by human emotions.
>>Therefore
>>the tug of war. Get ready to save mankind no be good,
>>you are not living in that dimension you are here on
>>Earth!!
>
> Who said mankind needs saving? Goddess is All that is, so anything you
> think needs saving, is an effect of a limited perception, not an ultimate
> reality. It is a projection, and not exactly a very positive one,
> projecting need and unenlightenment onto others for the purpose of having
> playmates for your own superiority game.
>
> There may be folks who believe they need "saving" because they find
> some value in the illusion of helplessness, but that does not alter the
> spiritual truth that they are Gods of their own lives and truly need nothing.
>
> I know, "thou art God" and need nothing from me, or anyone. You do not
> know it, consciously, and ask me to play a game of teacher seeker
> Shaktipat Master with you. If Goddess (thou) wants to play at being
> unenlightened seeker, who am I to judge that? I can choose to deny you or
> surrender to your wishes.
>
> I happen to find the "teacher seeker" game a more enjoyable,
> subjectively rewarding way to while away the days, a more fun way to pay
> for groceries than some other games, so I'll go along with it... as I am
> doing, writing this... it is subjective.
>
> I seem to have some talent for it, apparently embedded in my DNA, that
> plus enjoyment suggests purpose in incarnation... but I am equally
> talented as an artist, and could be a fine artist easily. I just find
> "art of people" a type of gardening (Goddess plants the seed and makes
> the flowers grow, I just water them) more interesting and rewarding than
> painting, sculpture, etc. More blissful, most days. Sometimes I get tired
> of catering to expectations and prefer to manipulate wood or cement or
> wax or paint... so I do.
>
> but Goddess does not judge. That which IS does not care if I choose to
> play teacher or choose to play axe murderer. Infinite manifestation
> values ALL experiences. I and those I interact with, are the ones who care.
>
> My mother would prefer me to be an artist... she sees value in that
> and does not understand the spiritual teacher thing. I cannot live my
> life for her, I must be true to my Self and have none before.
>
> Goddess the One made an illusion of many, because One is a lonely
> number that gets no hugs... so there is value and enjoyment in
> interaction... subjectively.
>
>>My QiGong master and her Grandmaster (Dr. CHOW) called
>>me last night because I did not go to my QiGong class.
>> They say I am it.
>
> You are what? What is "it"? Have they defined that for you, and do you
> accept their definitions? What is their motive in projecting "it" onto
> you? Are they also caught in the illusions of "savior" and "need"? What
> value do they get from that? What is the value for you, in accepting and
> validating their projections?
>
>>My father told me last night to take a break from it
>>all.
>
> Seems there are a lot of folks telling you what to do, but what is it
> *you* want to do?
>
> Richard Bach writes "In the path of your happiness shall you find the
> learning for which you have chosen this lifetime." On a soul level you
> already know all there is to be known, so cross off "learning" and say
> "experiences."
>
> Joseph Campbell says "follow your bliss." Jesus the Christ says
> "don't hide your light under a bucket." Talents born of the DNA, plus
> enjoyment (we tend to enjoy what we are good at) point to purpose in
> incarnation. It is internal, subjective. Others may offer suggestions,
> but the choice is yours. Free Will. To thine own Self be true.
>
>>I am not sure if I need a clearing and opening or a
>>break. I will tell you I know this - in the next two
>>weeks something will change inside me and enable me to
>>do whatever it is I was meant for.
>
> Ok... I would say "why put off till tomorrow, what you can do today?"
> Time is illusion, tomorrow never comes and the point of power is in the
> Now. We experience linearity, and "growing" in the illusion of the
> physical, and hey, it is fun!
>
>>I wish I could say, I am just a reiki practitioner.
>
> Then, why don't you?
>
> What is the importance of titles, labels? After a lifetime of
> "spiritual seeking" I have a whack of titles, but none of them can define
> "I AM." They are somewhat useful for advertising purposes, people seem to
> want titles to define and relate, on an ego level, but the one I use most
> consistently is "Mystress" and it is not found in any dictionary... the
> meaning is wholly subjective. People interpret it the way they want to,
> and it does not matter because no definition or label can define the
> infinite Is.
>
> My on interpretation of it is approximately that: female vessel of
> infinite mystery... mysterious indefinable I AM taking physically female
> form... but I may decide it means something else, another day. People
> respond to energy, on an unconscious level... the titles are just for ego
> rationalization.
>
>>I know that the portals that have opened have
>>something to do with me.
>
> Yes. You are All that Is, so who else would it have to do with? There
> is nobody else. I call this "enlightened selfishness." Be true to your
> Self. Illusions of "what other people need" are projections. Many healers
> and teachers fall into that illusion... it leads to burnout and frustration.
>
> You have to love yourself before you can love another, etc... you
> cannot share happiness unless you have some to share. Focus on your own
> bliss, and you will have bliss to share with the illusion of other. Let
> go of what others want you to be, and focus inward on your own bliss...
> and having found it, you can decide who you want to play what games with.
>
>>So what do you think I should do. Because I feel that
>>now is when I should get cleared and get there.
>
> I do not know what you *should* do... should is a projection word. You
> seem to have a lot of folks giving you the "should"... I am not one.
>
> You feel a desire for cleansing, so lets do that. When the projections
> and attachments are cleared, it will be easier for you to know your Self,
> and know what you truly want, outside of what others want you to be for
> them. Then you will be at a better place to decide if you want to
> surrender to what they want, or do something else.
>
> Maybe this response is too Zen for you... :) I do not feel it is,
> (Namaste) I know Goddess in you understands. I will be more practical,
> in the session, and relate to you more on the level you feel you are at.
Mystress Angelique Serpent- Vancouver, BC, Canada.
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