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Hello,
I haven't posted much at all ever since I joined, but guilt is something I've been noticing a lot more because of growth I'm undergoing I'm sure, and am curious as to what feedback I may get.
Just to quickly refresh a bit on my "experience", I'm 16 and this summer have started to realize my spiritual self more, and realized many things about the Self. My realizations have lead me to wanting to gain consciousness of myself and all, therefore I've been watching my thoughts and feelings more often. Instead of labeling, for the most part, I just accept and embrace all in acceptance.
However, and I realize this is part of being a human, I still have my baggage. After these amazing realizations, feeling awakened, I've had a lot of GUILT. I'm supposing this is karma, and just part of everything I have learned about myself and how we all are. Guilt from feeling that I'm not "perfect". Somehow after feeling like I grew a lot, and realizing what I want to do and to be filled with love, I feel guilty for the way I STILL act now and then. Anger, overreacting, etc. I'm learning from the guilt itself. It just still bugs me a lot. Wanting to do certain things, create art, just do a lot, and then feeling as if I am wasting my time doing other things, then feeling lazy, etc. An example would be, I work out almost every single day, but when I do miss a day, I feel very guilty and as if I am being lazy and that one missed day will result in no longer going regularly and keeping healthy and in shape. Also, way I react, blahblahblah. Now and then, things I did in the past hurting someone I love.
All of it ties in to self image, ego, aaaaaaaaaall this stuff we all deal with, and wanted to bring up the subject to you because I'm curious as to advice or just thoughts that may help me out, meditations, or just say that make me think and get good ideas ;)or maybe even help some of you reading.
thankies :)
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