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Recieved: 2003/09/22 08:14
Subject: RE: [K-list] One cannot think around the whole body until K
From: Rich
On 2003/09/22 08:14, Rich posted thus to the K-list:
>
> > I don´t eman anything strange or esoteric or mystic, or something
> > that is far away from conventional people. Nope. It is just listening to
> > your body, to your pain, to your fears ... to follow their advice, and
> not
> > "what other people say" or "what is written at the books". It is as
> simple
> > as that.
>
> *Yeah! I'm all for listening to body, but not sure about listening to my
> *fears.... Sounds too scary!
>
> *My heart once told me to stop being afraid of being afraid...
>
> People speak a lot about "irrational fears" and how to "conquer
> them".
> But they don´t speak about the thousands of years that human had to
> develop
> more and more this feeling so they could survive in hostile enviroments.
> Prehistoric human, needed fear for their day to day survival, if they
> stopped being properly connected with it, they would die. The difference
> between live and dead could be only of seconds, and that was what would
> give
> them a well developed feeling of fear.
The thing about fear is that it controls 'us' to a lesser or greater extent.
We don't have the choice, unless, the fear has been 'conquered' or detached
from.
Listening to the fear is giving it more power. Feeding it so it becomes us,
instead of a re-action out of a held to past trauma. All fear is fear of the
future. A projection of imagination and/or unprocessed memory. Once the
event is happening the fear is gone.
Someone said recently that all fear is rooted in death. Further someone said
all fear is fear of letting go. I agree to both.
To me it feels like there is a 'fear centre'. The closer I live to this, the
more fearful I am in everything I do. More fears come up and poke me. I am
less in control. Re-acting instead of acting. If I am filled within and
grounded then these fears are not there (at least I don't notice them). They
don't come to me. If I could dissolve this fear centre today I would. But
all I have learnt tells me it takes time.
The other possibility is to come to terms with fear itself so it is
integrated and not feared (resisted). Not be swayed by it. Live in the fear
energy. But it's powerful and dark to me. Maybe both things will happen
together. The day I accept fear, then my fear will be no longer.
I do believe that bodily death and ego death have some commonalities. In so
much as ego death means to have come to terms with bodily death. There is
nothing to loose, nothing to be held on to. No ego, no fear.
I used to think that fear and love were opposites. In me they exist together
but I don't believe if I conquer fear then I conquer love. It is an unknown
if this is based in duality. I think love is outside of duality. Maybe fear
is the basis of duality itself. And there is the real dichotomy.
Okay... Take me to the loony bin before it's too late.
>
> *Destruction to me is the ultimate expansion.
>
> I think destruction can lead you to a great expansion, but a very
> traumatic one. With a lot of risks.
Be grateful :)
Love,
Rich
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