To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/09/11 05:06
Subject: [K-list] How To Explain?
From: hbrost
On 2003/09/11 05:06, hbrost posted thus to the K-list:
Dear List,
If I don't put down the description of what I experienced last night, I
never will or I'll forget. I tend to forget these occurences and they fade
out of memory. Then I wish I would have made note of them or described them
to this list.
To begin with, I continue to go through what most normal people will
describe as "awful times." Thank you, Herr Bush. For the last three
years, it seems, I've "lost my touch" as it were. No new business, no money
and no garlands of luck thrown on my person. I'm kind of left to the winds
of Kundalini, I think. Last year I lost my Skye-Dalmatian to acute renal
failure and last week I learned that my Molly-Dalmatian, my love, has
matastacized cancer throughout her body. I found out as a result of a
routine yearly CBC (blood test).
How could she have cancer? She doesn't exhibit any symptoms whatsoever and
loves to play, eat, run around, at age almost-thirteen years. Anyway, too
long a story and for a pet list, not a K list! However, my K energy is
going haywire, again. I haven't experienced anything like what I've
experienced described or written about on this list.
Last night, for three times, I experienced my consciousness (that's the best
I can do with a description) expand outward to "everything." It was like an
explosion each time. Then, each time, it contracted back to my human-ness
as I experience my "mind." Each time my consciousness (I don't know) became
so big that it became All, until I couldn't handle it, I think, and then, in
a second, it contracted back my tiny human mind.
This wasn't dream stuff, nor OBE stuff, it seems I was becoming more. It was
like experiencing everything and then "whooshing" back to my small
self-contained stuff that we define as our head, or brain, or,
unfortunately, this human thing in which we're encased.
Well, this is the best I can do. With my limited experience of "knowing," I
might venture to guess that there's a very thin electromagnetic wall
dividing our human experience and perhaps, what really IS. Sometimes we may
break into what really IS -- but how? Is this awakening? Is this simply a
symptom of K? To tell you all the truth, I'd really like more, except I
know for a fact my human mind can't handle it. Is this my second "kensho?"
Doncha wish God/dess published a manual? Has anyone experienced this kind
of expansiveness before?
Having a time,
Hety
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