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Recieved: 2003/09/03 00:53
Subject: Re: [K-list] trying to talk about awakening/Beat Up
From: Paul Perner
On 2003/09/03 00:53, Paul Perner posted thus to the K-list:
> [Original Message]
> From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <Mystress AT_NOSPAM fire-serpent.com>
>
> ......and I am saying that SRA does not exist except in the fantasies of
> the insane, and the minds of those who believe them.
>
One of the strangest parts of my K psychosis was
when I thought some cult might be after me because
I knew too much. Even after I became grounded again,
it took me a long time to own up to the fact that
I was delusional. The spooky thing was, AFTER my
event I found out about SRA and "mind control."
I experienced in my mind some of very same things
that alleged MPDs and SRA people have. Thankfully,
I didn't go overboard with it. I began to suspect
that whatever truth might have started the phenomenon,
it had been stretched to the point of absurdity.
You're spot on, Mystress. SRA became an out of control
culture unto itself. It's a way for the mentally ill
and some therapists not to take responsibility for
what really could be wrong. "The Devil made me do it!"
> SRA is a prejudicial urban myth that does harm......
Very true. Thanks for the links.
To this day there are innocent school teachers
in prison who were accused during the "Satanic
panic" of a few years ago.
> On the other hand... death and abuse by cults practicing exorcisms
are
> quite common. Ironic, eh?
I read in the NY Times of the death of a child during
an exorcism just last week. If I mention these deaths
to my friend, she just comes back at me with her
stories of thousands of ritual human sacrifices by
secret black hooded cults dancing around bonfires.
>
> ..............All the "demons" I have encountered, turned out to be
> personality splinters that needed to be integrated, not exorcised.
> Repressed, angry, lonely personality splinters formed when some aspect of
> themselves was denied.
>
Bingo! Oh, I wish you could get this through to my
friend in person, but Mystress, she would be terrified
of you. Fire Serpent.... gasp!!! Run for the hills!!!
All considered, though, you and her together
would make for a meeting of two very striking,
remarkable women.
> Today, I'd like to blame the faeries for the disappearance and
> reappearance of my ghetto blaster......
> ...........
> ........ My adjusted memory shows that I intended to loan the ghetto
> blaster, agreed to do so, but could not find it at the time, to actually
> give it to her before she left... ooops. I'm an idiot.
>
This world would be a better place if everybody
could be as candid and honest.
> ... and the cause of such splintering often is some sort of trauma, but
> not necessarily the trauma that is remembered. More often, the trauma is
a
> reaction to events that are essentially self created. Not the abuse, but
> the individuals reaction to it. Whether they repress, act out or grow
> from it.
>
> While extreme varieties of disassociation and splintering leading to
> mental illness do exist, we all have that potential, to some extent. Who
> you are at work may be a different persona than who you are at home, or
> with friends or relatives.
>
My friend has stated, "I've been fragmented," but she's
not a multiple. The only things in her story that check out
are yes, she was raped by a stranger and yes, her father
had her attend a Masonic initiation rite when she was
young (a harmless ceremony, but now it's given her bragging
rights in the wacky world of SRA).
And yes, there's a conflict in her that seems to have
made her run for the shelter of fundie Christianity.
I don't think she was comfortable having "come out"
gay just as her career was taking off. The music community
(and the public) doesn't really care. Having her as a
bold, Melissa Enthrige kind of singer would have actually
been a plus in record sales. But the tall, free and
confident woman was cut down and swallowed up by the
great Satanic Panic.
She celibate now and say her past lifestyle
was "an abomination before the Lord."
A few months ago I posted about a friend who was
in UCLA hospital with grave illnesses that I believed
were complicated by SRA fear. Well, this is the same
friend I'm talking about. She's still not physically
well, so I'm being gentle and not approaching her
with the things we've been posting about.
> ...............
>
> PS: I'm going to be away from my computer for 2 weeks vacation.
>
Thank you for the insightful post, Mystress.
Have a wonderful time away and may all your travels
be free of ghetto blaster stealing gremlins!
Paul
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