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Recieved: 2003/09/01 15:44
Subject: Re: [K-list] Philosophical question
From: Taylorbklyn
On 2003/09/01 15:44, Taylorbklyn posted thus to the K-list:
In a message dated 09/01/2003 10:57:43 AM Eastern Daylight Time,
elargonauto AT_NOSPAM ya.com writes:
<< The deep one ... some months ago I had a non-dual insight ( the only
thing like this I have ever experienced) where at a moment I could understad
truly that " Life and death are exactly the same". No difference, death =
live. I am sure about this. I know in reality there is no difference.
I will try to share a few "insights" from my psychotic break which may help
you understand your own insight.
I've only discovered the concept of kundalini a few weeks ago. When I was
"psychotic" I could actually see a light that traveled from object to object,
person to person. It was like a ball, tied to me by a rubber band, that would
eventually bounce back to me. I wasn't sure if the light was from me or if it
somehow chose to use me as a "base" station.
The light would annimate everything it touched. Sometimes it would result in
a sneeze in one person, laughter in another, or anger in others. There were
moments when I thought I was the cause of all the worlds problems and other
times when I realized that I was some sort of "sacrifical lamb"...I dared to
believe that God had chosen me to perform the duties of the beast, outlined in
Revelations. I imagined that this "light" was the mark of the beast, the "666"
that I had to try to avoid accepting.
In any case, one can see how religious misinterpretations can lead to a
psychosis for one who has awakened their kundalini. And why, reading through the
archives of kundalini-gateway is like discovering the Dead Sea Scrolls.
We are conditioned to believe that there is some sort of finale to life. We
see ourselves as separate from everyone else, God and the energies of the
universe. When my psychosis subsided and the energies continued to flow (after
learning to "let-go") I came to a new conclusion regarding life and death.
The conclusion came from a Buddhist, who joined me for a brief moment on "my
path" at the beginning of my psychosis. He summarized life and death like
this: "Our spirits are like the beer in this glass. Upon death, the glass no
longer exists, but the liquid continues to flow.
During my "psychosis" I believe that this "light",or energy as you may
describe it, did awake-- the beer flowed outside the glass. And somehow, I was
granted the gift of witnessing what the Buddhist was explaining to me.
The hard part, for me at least, is to try and understand that the true me is
that beer in a glass. My body serves as a glass for this energy to see itself,
explore itself and to prepare itself to flow endlessly in the sea of spirit.
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