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Recieved: 2003/08/10 05:14
Subject: Re: [K-list] Age of awakening poll II
From: hbrost
On 2003/08/10 05:14, hbrost posted thus to the K-list:
Question:
What age were you when you first became K awakened? What do you think
triggered your awakening?
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Dear Hillary and List,
I have no idea! ;-) Strange things always happened, i.e., "knowings,"
dreams, visions. When I was very young I often had bad dreams, altho' I
think they were "dreams" of being lost. So lost that it became a horrible
nightmare. It could have been a dream of separation from God and not
wanting to come into this world. I'm not very comfortable in this world.
When I was six or so, I would, according to my parents, get out of bed and
dance in a circle chanting some kind of gibberish -- they said. Robert
Peterson writes about this kind of thing in his book on OB experiences.
As I became older I always felt out of place and then began spending a lot
of time by myself, lying on my back, crossing and uncrossing my legs. I
used to "count" with my fingers all the time. I was always counting.
Then...as I got older, I started having visions...and on it goes. Very
boring, most of you here have had the same things. However, I didn't
<realize> until I came to this list that there ARE people who experience
these things!
But as far as "awakening," well, perhaps, I've always been "awake?" When I
was four years old, I stuck out my tongue at the pastor. I didn't like him.
No reason. I used to "see" fairies?
If I had to actually choose a year when I realized I was awake, I'd say 44.
That's because that's the year when I knew I had to find out why I was so
different from other people AND that was the year when I knew precisely who
Jesus is and was and what the Bible really means as opposed to what most
people, myself included, think/thought it means/meant. When I was 45 I was
"told" to lead a discussion group on The Course in Miracles -- never read it
until then and knew precisely the whole point of the entire Course. It is
Kundalini. No one really recognizes this, I find.
Also, it was then I knew that if time is NOW, and everything is happening in
the now, karma is simply guilt. It was then I decided that karma doesn't
exist, as guilt shouldn't/doesn't exist because we're all the perfect beings
in the NOW because time doesn't exist. We are at once at the beginning and
the end, without any effort on our part. You see? If we are One, we are
totally free, sinless and without karma. Forget the guilt! ;-)
Excuse the rambling. I had to get that out. It's a very hard concept to
'see' but I think, it's the whole point of our being. No worry. Very hard.
So, Hillary, put me down as both always awake and awake at 44...I don't
know. Since joining this list I can only conclude that we're all a terribly
weird awakened bunch experiencing and exhibiting perhaps, some of the most
wonderful mysteries this life has to offer.
;-)
Love,
Hety
p.s. I probably just opened a can of worms. Oh well...
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