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Recieved: 2003/08/09 03:59
Subject: [K-list] Re: When did I first experience Kundalini?
From: Boydster
On 2003/08/09 03:59, Boydster posted thus to the K-list:
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>I'm wondering at what age the current list members became awakened...
I was 24 years old when I first experienced Kundalini, and I'm 43 now.
As a young single man of 24, I had been meditating, fasting and otherwise
"cleansing" myself for several years in an attempt to get closer to God.
One day I was chanting the Rosary to Mother Mary (I'm not Catholic, or even
very interested in churches, but I'm attracted to Ascended Masters and
Angels...) and clasping my hands tightly over my heart and I started to
feel a burning sensation there in the center of my chest. I didn't realize
what was happening right away and was a little concerned. It happened for
several days in a row before I remembered some Theosophy teachings about
Kundalini and then I connected the dots.
I was a little worried at first because I had always heard that you need to
have a Guru right there who can help in case things get out of hand. I had
nothing like that so I just sat down and asked Mother Mary to stop the
Kundalini thing if it was not meant to be or was dangerous to me.
Otherwise--I asked Her to watch over me and moderate things, and I'd just
keep going and be mindful of keeping pure thoughts.
The next day I sat down to meditate and I touched myself on the top of my
head where the soft spot is on a baby. Within about 10 minutes the light
had risen up to my crown chakra and was causing the same burning/swelling
sensation in the top of my head as had happened the last few day in my
heart chakra. The effect on my conscious awareness was pretty amazing. I
had always been very sensitive and kind of psychic. But this was a hundred
time stronger. I gradually learned how to summon the Light up my spine at
will and to direct it into whatever chakra I was working on at the time.
I'm 43 years old now and so I've been lit up with the Kundalini almost
constantly for about 19 years now. The worst things that have ever happened
to me are short-term headaches from prolonged overuse by projecting too
much energy out of my brow or third eye chakra. Also, there are times in
which my body gets so lit up that I have a hard time sleeping. Early on, I
had some very interesting tests conquering my emotions when dark entities
tried to scare me or surround me with cloudy masses of other peoples
feelings of depression, which they had aggregated and enveloped me with in
an attempt to derail me. Overall, this path has DEMANDED mental and
emotional discipline. And looking back now I can see why unprepared people
who have not tried to discipline these basic functions might have a lot of
problems with the magnifying force of the Kundalini Light activating
everything in them--good or bad.
One thing that puzzles me are the stories I read about people who say that
Kundalini runs wild in them and has Her way without regard to their wishes.
I guess I have to believe it's true for them, but it's never been that way
for me. I can walk down a busy street with many sensory diversions, and
with just a thought, I can summon the Light up into my Crown Chakra within
less than a minute. I can then hold it there for as long as I want,
redirect it to another chakra or use the energy to create a physical event
or feeling or to "put a ray on someone" to give them special encouragement
or help. But the Kundalini Light never moves without my will.
I imagine that I've probably had some experience with the Kundalini energy
and the disciplines involved in past lives and that may be why it's been
relatively easy for me this time. I don't know, because even though I
occasionally see info about others past lives or futures, I am totally
blocked from seeing my own. It's kind of a funny thing which I'm sure is
something God intends, in order that my free will and decision making goes
unfettered.
A somewhat comical aspect of this is that since the first period of
awakening of Kundalini within me, I've had a terrible ability to judge
time. For instance, an event which may have happened 4 weeks ago seems to
me to have happened any time between 1-4 weeks ago!! I really couldn't tell
you for sure! I think it's because my consciousness dwells mostly in the
etheric or mental planes where time is not the same. Another manifestation
of this is that if you ask me to describe a person who I'd just met, I
probably couldn't tell you much about their outer appearance. But I could
talk for a while about their general emotional tendencies, habits, self
esteem and stuff like that.
I live a pretty busy life with a family and a demanding job. But my inner
spiritual life is something that I just can't imagine letting go of. The
adventures just never end.
It's nice to meet you all. I'm leaving on vacation as I type this--so if
anyone asks me a question I won't be able to answer it for a couple of
weeks. Go ahead and ask and I'll catch up later. This list is interesting.
Boyd
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