To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/08/06 18:45
Subject: [K-list] Forward from Juliette
From: Druout
On 2003/08/06 18:45, Druout posted thus to the K-list:
Dear List,
The following letter is from JulietteCrouch AT_NOSPAM aol.com
Unfortunately, those who are using aol 8 can't seem to get through the list
filters. AOL 7 is ok because one can change one's post from HTML to plain
text.
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Hi there,
I joined the K-List about a week ago and have been sitting in the background
watching and absorbing, relieved to have a forum in which to grow.
I have been avidly reading trying to make sense of what is happening but not
really succeeding. Maybe it's to do with all new terminology or maybe the
nature of the unfolding isn't meant to be understood. Maybe that's part of the
surrendering not needing to understand just trusting that everything unfolds as
it should for the higher good.
A few month ago I started having really strange slightly disturbing (yet
truly amazing) things happening. They were disturbing because I had no point of
reference for any of it. I feel like I'm being pulled up. I went through 3 days
of crying, shaking, huge surges of energy rushing through me, (is there anyway
of preparing for these????).
It was strange because as they rushed through me I could feel them hitting
points and trying to push through, it was as if a huge pressure was building up
at these points.
I kept clicking into a trance state with visions crowding my head. Not able
to stop drawing, something I have not done in years. In this space I was
granted the gift of meeting one of my spirit guides. It was truly magical.
Throughout these days I cut myself off, not able to place where everything belonged. I
felt detached from myself but at the same time more me than ever before..
Everywhere I looked I began to see the life force flowing. My eyes would suddenly
be pulled away from everyday seeing, where we forget to actual look, and I
would have joined in the flow all around. Not wanting to return to the world
around. Wanting to stay connect, free flowing.
Every time I look at the sky all I can see are these spiral swirls coming
down. It's the most amazing sight. Sometimes it does all feel a bit much though.
I go through days where I just feel like a receiver, feeling everything
sometimes I don't know what I'm picking up but it can be overwhelming. I'm not used
to surrendering. I'm unlearning at the moment. Didn't quite realize just how
much I have blocked. I look and friends and family and want to share, what
confirmation about what's happening but know if I say anything they really wont
understand, well how can they when I don't really understand.
I feel like I'm connecting with the most amazing thing ever, something I have
felt for years and tried to push away because of fear. Not knowing whether I
had the strength to stay sane through it all. Not realizing that as you let
you and surrender you gain the strength. It's only in the denying that I become
weak. When connected I realized that this is a true state of bliss.
Love and light to you all
Juliette
PS that shaking thing in the stomach, like laughing but with no sound. What
is it?? It's been happening a lot to me recently
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