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Recieved: 2003/07/19 19:59
Subject: Re: [K-list] And the next question ......
From: Linda Hankey
On 2003/07/19 19:59, Linda Hankey posted thus to the K-list:
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>From: Druout AT_NOSPAM aol.com
>To: carol.linda AT_NOSPAM virgin.net
>Sent: Friday, July 18, 2003 10:28 PM
>Subject: Re: [K-list] And the next question ......
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>>Dear Hillary
>>Lovely to receive your reply
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>>>My K-dreams have also been about a wide variety of >religious figures--from Tibetan Monks to one of a young >girl who was probably Kali. Once I dreamt of Jesus. >Since these occur during sleep, I don't consider them >visions, though they probably are in a sense.
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>>The experiences I described I tend to think of as visions because I know I was completely awake. I have had ones that occur during sleep too, and these are so intense and "real" that they feel more than a dream.
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>>Carole wrote:
>>>In 1994 when I went through a very tough time I saw the most horrifying things
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>>Hillary wrote:
>>>I'm a bit curious to know what the horrifying visions were.
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>>Well! ... The healer I was being treated by in 1994 who warned me of psychic attack etc seemed to trigger some pretty awful stuff for me. The horrifying "visions" and nightmares started then, and continued on and off for some years, and all of this caused me to become depressed and very very frightened of having anything to do with spiritual matters. In a previous e-mail I have spoken about the night when I felt a presence in the room. From that night on I was terrified to go to bed, as soon as I turned the light out I would see horrifying things just like out of a horror film. Grotesque faces, rotting corpses - the lot. Also I used to see very fast moving geometrical shapes which used to scare me, and were accompanied by a loud noise like tinnitus (I suffer with tinnitus and deafness). I would also hear all sorts of sounds, loud bangs, laughter, snatches of conversation. All of this of course made me think I was going mad. I felt that there was an intelligence behind who or whatever was causing these things, and this I think is why I believed the psychic attack explanation. Some of the things I recall seeing are:
>>Waking up to see the bed engulfed in flames
>>Seeing the bed covered in what looked like a huge cobweb
>>Seeing a red light hovering in the room
>>There were different things every day, so I don't remember them all and anyway tried to put them out of my mind!
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>>The healer was encouraging me become a healer and to do absent healing, and every time I tried to send healing to someone I would see that person with "Dracula" teeth, dripping in blood, and they would bite me. As I was trying to send healing to my Mother and other relatives and friends, you can imagine how disturbing it was. I became terrified of knives for some reason, and once couldn't buy my usual TV listings magazine because there was a picture of Dracula on the front cover. At this time suddenly everything became very black and white to me - no shades of grey, people close to me commented that I had stopped being open to other's beliefs and was seeing everything as either good or evil. To me it felt as if two paths were open to me, one the right hand/good/heavenly path, and the other left hand/hell which was so terrifying that there was only once choice as to which to take.
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>>During this time I used to have disturbing bodily sensations, the most memorable being;
>>feeling that the facial bones were moving, especially at top of nose/forehead
>>strange sensation right side of face, arms, spine
>>feeling that the top of the head was wide open
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>>I was treated for depression with medication and counselling, and somehow managed to continue to work throughout this period. For at least 2 years I had nothing to do with spiritual matters at all, and only regained my interest and beliefs very gradually.
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>>Spiritual teachers told me that these experiences happened because of my sensitivity and level of spiritual development, and that my fear was attracting entities which feed off the fear and promote more fear to continue their feed. I was taught many protection methods, none of which I ever felt helped.
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>>Carole wrote:
>>>Many thanks for listening to this, these aren't the sort >of things I can normally discuss as you can imagine.
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>>Hillary wrote:
>>>Actually you will find you can share with people on the >K list. Most of us have had some pretty incredible >experiences!
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>>Yes, thanks for that advice, I will copy this to the list and would be very grateful for any replies. Sorry for such a long e-mail
>>Love, Carole
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