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Recieved: 2003/07/11 19:14
Subject: [K-list] Kundalini rising entry 2
From: Kathleen Schramm PR Dept
On 2003/07/11 19:14, Kathleen Schramm PR Dept posted thus to the K-list:
I promised to continue relating my experiences, a few
more are entered below.
If anyone does not understand specific terms, or
words, please take the time to do your own research.
Thank you.
I believe the following 4 appearances represent the
"shadow side" to the elements of Earth, Fire, Air, and
Water, and/or the fears I needed to conquer before
continuing on the journey of the Kundalini rising. If
someone has other interpretations, or links that
provide research, I am interested. Further on in my
experience I was visited by the "light side" of the
elements. I will relate those(opposite) experiences in
the future.
Some of the following experiences can be considered by
the reader to be "scary", so I suggest staying in a
neutral mental/emotional position. The final paragraph
of this entry ends on a more uplifting note.
During the following experiences I can only relate in
my own terminology what I perceived to be occurring. I
seemed to be in two worlds at once. I was quite aware
of the physical world around me, furniture, sounds
etc. Yet the walls and ceiling of my room appeared to
become transparent. I was aware of the walls, and yet
I could see beyond the limitations of the wood, and
cloth surrounding me.
On October 11, 1978: This night I did not go out of
the body, as I did in the first experience. I was
fully awake. I had just gone to bed
and turned off the light. What appeared was a
beast with red fur. This was something like I would
picture an Abominable snowman or Yeti (that is what
immediately came to mind). I kept thinking to myself
"OK, with a deep breath, I have been told that God
doesn't give you anything more than you can handle." I
wondered why I had attracted such a being into my
presence. While I reclining there I could feel as if a
cloth of protection was around me. I trusted it. There
was nothing between me and the beast, but for that
light of protection.
I observed the beast circling my bed. It made a low
noise in its throat each time it put down its foot.
This made me think that the beast was carrying a heavy
burden. I never did see the entire beast, only about
3/4 of it actually manifested. It walked upright, like
a man would.
After studying it for a while, I told this thing that
I was one with God and to leave because it did not
belong to me. It instantly disappeared.
October 12, 1978: A woman appeared to me that looked
like a prostitute. She seemed to try and beckon me in
a very sexual manner. She moved her body in a
seductive, slinking, manner. She was very attractive,
with black hair, and very dark penetrating eyes. She
was wearing black. I recall well her long red
fingernails, and her red red lips. I told her to go
away in the same manner I did the beast.
It was many years before I ever used red nail polish
after this experience. Her nails were so intensely
striking, but they also seemed dangerous and symbolic
of something not good.
In that (at the time) I had no idea what was going on,
I wondered why in the heck I would attract such a
being? Boy, this was really confusing. I knew that I
could not fear her because then I would attract her to
me. I knew I had to stay neutral, but this visitation
really disturbed me. This appearance brought me to
question very personal aspects of myself, my
sexuality.
October 13, 1978: I was wide awake, and the intense
energy was all about me. I once again retreated within
the energy while a new and equally disturbing being
appeared. At this point I began to use the
visualization of standing at the feet of God and being
surrounded by the protection I expected from the
Supreme Being.
At first, from a distance, she looked so intriguing.
As she moved closer, I immediately formed a different
opinion. She opened her mouth into
somewhat of a smile, which displayed long fang-like
teeth. She had decorated her face with what appeared
to be glitter, around her eyes and down the middle of
her cheeks. It was fashioned to a point, ending just
above her jaw line. I told her to go away as I did the
ones before her. She immediately disappeared.
October 14th, 1978. I was just getting comfortable in
bed and nuzzling down under the covers. I felt someone
next to me at the head of the bed. I thought one of my
kids had come into the room without me hearing them. I
turned to see what was going on and saw the
"prostitute" within inches of me. Stating that I was
startled would be a gross understatement. I am sure
that I gasped. My heart started racing, but I knew I
must not allow fear to fill me. I took a big breath
and at that point had no inner conflict to deal with,
I told her in no uncertain tone that she did not
belong with me and to leave immediately. She
disappeared.
October 15, 1978: An eye appeared. It was a right eye.
Just an eye. I thought of the "Eye of Horus", it
darted about the room above my bed. The eyeball looked
around rapidly as well, and there was a sound like a
strong wind.
As I was lying in bed trying to figure out what in the
heck was going on, when a little man - like a gremlin
- leaped on me and started gnawing on my belly. At
this point I was getting fed up with all these
appearances. I spoke to him and told him that before I
sent him on his way, I just had to get a look at his
face. I took hold of his jaw, and turned his face
towards me. When I saw his face I laughed. I told him
to go away as I did the others, and he disappeared.
He looked like a little prune-faced man. When I
grabbed his jaw, I thought to myself that his bones
seemed more like weak crab shell (that had been boiled
for hours), as opposed to being
something really hard and solid as one would expect.
He acted vicious, and "snarling", yet he was
really weak and fragile.
As soon as he disappeared, the energy (I told you
about in my previous entry), increased, and increased.
Then from my neck down, what seemed to be lightning
and then thunder exploded within the depths of me. A
split second later it went off in my head. Then sparks
flew out of the tips of my fingers.
After the lightning went off, I was totally engulfed
in spiritual flames of violet, bright white, and gold.
The sound was just like it sounds when you throw a
match to a huge amount of charcoal lighter on barbecue
coals.
The flames and energy and the "reflexology treatments"
I received were both pleasant and slightly painful at
times. It is as if something within me was being
burned away. Each morning when I woke I feel lighter
and freer - like paying the last payment on a loan.
My analysis, at this time 2003, is that I had to face
the "shadow side", and show no fear, before I could
continue to the next step. As I mentioned in my first
entry, I did not know that the rising of the Kundalini
was associated with burning off old karma. I didn't
know that I was experiencing the rising of the
Kundalini. Looking back at my diary, my descriptions
tell me exactly what was happening, but apparently I
was not ready to embrace the spiritual reality in
1978. At least I was aware enough to keep a diary of
the major events that occurred. Re-reading them after
all these years, and experiences, has altered how I
assimilate the meanings.
I think one of the key messages in this experience is
not to fear.
I think that it is the same with our lives, if we
concentrate on our fears, and not our goal, we will
end up with our destination being our point of fear. I
recall a statement from Job, "What I feared has come
upon me." This says volumes for thinking, and living
in a positive frame of mind.
The next night a Golden Rod shot forth from
the very depths of my being, up out of the top of my
head, the sound was like a fire roaring. Immediately
many symbols flew out of the top of my head. The
symbols included the Star of David, a circle, the
symbol of eternity (a number eight lying on it side),
a triangle pointing up, and one pointing down, and
many more, including the shape of The Statue of
Liberty. (Side note: since then I discovered the
Statue of Liberty was first called The Goddess of
Liberty.)
If I were to tell you that there were hundreds of
symbols, I don't think I would be exaggerating. They
were flying so fast I could not capture the shape of
all the images. It seemed to take about 2 hours so for
for all things to transpire. I did not look at the
clock, so I really have no idea. The rod was
instantaneous, the symbols took a while.
After this experience there were flames continuously
coming out of my root chakra. I could hear the sound
of intense flames, almost a furnace-like sound.
I have read since that the releasing symbols represent
a "sealing" of the aura. The Golden Rod, the rising of
the Kundalini. The flames are burning off old karmic
energy. I was to see the two triangles again (one
pointing up and the other down), but in a
different form. I will relate that experience in
another entry.
SpiritRose
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