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Recieved: 2003/05/29 13:16
Subject: RE: [K-list] Voices Outside My Head
From: Infinitum
On 2003/05/29 13:16, Infinitum posted thus to the K-list:
James Wrote: Once I had a dream, that I overheard a long lost friend conversing with someone, ... in my bowl of cereal! It sounded as if it were an intercom turned on! I was astounded! I then started to talk into this bowl, trying to get my friend's attention,...and he answered me, too! We started to talk through it, as if it were a walkie talkie. I could not believe that this bowl of cereal was acting as a Nexus! .................
Hi James. Thanks for your insight into the the topic of voices. I'm wondering though if the phenomenon which you are describing, obviously a valid K-experience, slightly differs? "The Voice" that I heard, was acutally an external projection outside, literally, of myself. An entity with a life of its own. Not connected to me in anyway only that I heard it, and connected to nothing or no one physical. All I saw was an empty doorway, about 12 ft away. It betrays my reasoning even until now.
An elderly lady (of Christian faith) suggested to me the story of Samuel in the Book of Samuel chapter 3:1-10. Samuel, a young lad at the time, was ministering to the priest Eli, who was growing old. As Samuel lay in his bed the Voice of the Lord (YHVH) came to Samuel........etc..If you read the story, notice how Eli considers "The Voice of God" to be Eli the Priest? This precisely describes what I experienced. Not to imply some form of self-grandiosity on my part (in spite of my screen name :)) )
I read the piece carefully after being reminded of the story. I instantly recalled having read it from my bible studies when I was younger. I think that was likely all of our (list members collectively, and humanity as a whole) first glimpse into the mysteries that lie beyond the temporality of time, that is religion. A sense of deep understanding overtook me upon recalling and "reconnecting" as it were with that ancient truth, that I had recently experienced myself. I think personally too the bible and all religious texts are a roadmap to all who would believe in themselves and the powers of the Kundalini, Holy Spirit, or what have you.
The point I am trying to impress upon you though James, before digressing too far, "The Voice was an External Projection". It was not the commonality of the run of the mill conversation that takes place in dreams. (not to minimize your experience, what you are describing is far from common) There were no accompanying visuals, except for what seemed to be projections of "The Voice" encircling the ceiling of the room on either side to collide in the center at the opposite end (Ida & Pingala or Yin & Yang). Like two rushing rivers they were, dynamic, moving, pure Energy coming from my doorway, projecting toward me from some unseen source. I never saw anyone standing there until now (not that I would want to at this point). I recall thinking in real time as I returned to normal conciousness that my Father could not be in NY.
I think it is interesting to note that I engaged in what might be considered Tantric Sex that night, earlier in the evening (this may be better for the k-sex list). It was quite satisfying in other words. I had done some deep breathing exercises and some meditative reading prior to retiring. I laid down at 5:01am and was awakened by the phenomenon at 5:18am. The event seemed to last only a second or even a few seconds, or it could have lasted the full 17 minutes.
I am wondering too if Freud might not say that I was experiencing some sort of guilt complex and had formed a guilt bridge of some sort for having engaged in my sexual escapades earlier in the evening and the projection was my very own shadow self in the guise of my Father?
I almost forgot, today is the anniversary. It would have been the morning of today, one year ago, 5/29/02. I awoke this morning without incident. Last year the 29th was Wednesday, Mercury the planet of communication, was rising.
Peace and Blessings............Jeffrey
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