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Recieved: 2003/05/07 23:50
Subject: Re: [K-list] RE: Cycling of the Kundalini - Pagans
From: Whimsical Zephyr
On 2003/05/07 23:50, Whimsical Zephyr posted thus to the K-list:
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>
> I often get this sort of backache when I attend Pagan events. Right
> between the shoulder blades, behind the heart. It is partly bad posture,
> sitting on stumps around the fire I tend to slouch... and partly that the
> Magickal circle makes a type of tantric unity, so I end up getting a lot
of
> other folks stuff. Most pagans are spiritually awakened but not K.
> awakened, so they practice free will based magic not surrender. In Tantric
> unity, water finds it's own level. I often end up sick or sleeping for
days
> after a multi-day event, processing.
I too have been having problems with pagans (as you can tell from my posts!)
Some of it is my own stuff, some of it is not.
>
> Recently I was working with my favorite healer, and she told me the
> cause of the ache was Pagan folks projecting who they want me to be,
> literally pushing their ideas about me into the back of my heart.
I have a problem with pagan people not believing what I tell them.....they
either see me as having 'special powers' that they don't have, or not
believing me when I tell them about magical things that have happened to me.
A lot of pagan friends ask for my input on spiritual problems, and how to
make their life better, and then not only disregard what I say, but try to
convince me that I am wrong. I told one friend the key to dealing with pain
is to love the pain and give gratitude, and listen to what it is
saying......and he then tried to convince me that I was wrong, and that I
should hate the pain and attack it with psychic energy. Lord knows I tried
that in the past!! Never worked....so I stopped giving him input on his
disability, there was no point.
> The last event I attended, druid and I announced that we had bought a
> house, and I was astonished at the jealousy I felt from them.
I suspect jealousy may be contributing to my interpersonal problems
too.....but I have no proof of that, so I cannot say for sure. It's just
marvelously convenient when you talk about your 'special gifts' and someone
claims not only to have all of them too, but to be better at them!!!! And
then tries to convince me that I'm not as great at them as I think I am, and
that it's a good thing they came along to help me develop my full potential.
They ARE special gifts from the God/dess.....I did not work at them, I was
blessed.....but some people do not want to believe that such power could
come so easily.....power belongs to God/dess.
>
> I have had a few pagan friends who know me better, and they are
> surprised at how others describe seeing me... they do not see me, but
> themselves reflected. They do not own their stuff, so they project it...
> and in the unity, I accept it.
I never stop being amazed at how people see me.......sometimes I am so
amazed, I ask them if we've met!!! Someone once called me reserved and
introverted...they did not realize I appear that way because I knew I could
not be myself around that person, and so I did not try to interact with that
person at all. It was self-preservation, not reservation. That person had
indicated they were uncomfortable with gay people, people who are not
Christian, people who are 'different'.....and I did not bother to share any
of myself with that person, so I got slapped with an 'introverted' label!!
LOL
>
> That was the root issue within me, the cause within myself. I tend to
> take too much responsibility for the well being of the people around me.
If
> they do not take much responsibility for their own results, then it is
> unbalanced.
The two friends I am having issues with have both faced a lot of hardship
and discrimination....I took it upon myself to make them feel better. I set
up an empathic union with both, and a semi-tantric union with the
other......and they do not want to take responsibility for themselves, and I
got burnt out. My own fault for not seeing them as authors of their own
destinies, and able to help themselves.
>
> >Do you recommend the Fire Serpent Tantra course?
>
> Always... but not necessarily for this! ;)
I recommend it wholeheartedly!! I have been lazy as hell with the lessons,
and still, whenever I read one, I see the principles at work in my
life....it is wonderful!!
> It can be useful to travel into the blockage to see what you can see.
> Find the soul-spark that is your seat of consciousness, and imagine it
> moving into the blockage. Relax and observe your thoughts, visions,
> emotions without attaching to them or trying too hard to analyze. The
> meaning will come to you, later.
> Sometimes simply placing the soul energy into the blockage from a
state
> of surrender, is enough to break it up and wash it away.
This works for me a lot!! Sometimes merging wholeheartedly with the blockage
or pain makes it go away or stop being pain. Sometimes I have so much love
for the pain it becomes pleasure!!
>
> > I work full time as a healing facilitator and this physical pain the
> >area of my heart chakra began when I started to do extensive healing
work.
>
> Yes, it would. People are wanting more from you than you are able to
> give... wanting you to be their full time savior... and you are
> compassionate, so you allow the connections... but really, they do not
> serve. They have to find the Divine source within themselves... and you
> need to focus more on Namaste. Seeing the Divine in them, and knowing that
> their problems are perfection, the soul's choice to experience. They are
> Gods of their own lives, whether they know it or not... give
responsibility
> for who they are over to that, instead of taking so much of it on
yourself.
This advice came along at exactly the right moment. Thank you, Mystress and
God/dess.
Sabrina
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