To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/05/07 12:32
Subject: RE: [K-list] Happinness
From: Rich
On 2003/05/07 12:32, Rich posted thus to the K-list:
> I want to share something i'm struggling with. Being happy
> without being egotistical about it, is something that I find
> difficult to deal with.
This can be damning. Better to give up happiness... Just kidding ;)
Actually my own experience is fear can stand in the way of happiness.. for
me it is anothers jealousy and attempt to take happiness away through
intimidation and agression. Instead of being with the happiness feeling,
sometimes a fear gives rise to thoughts. Whether I choose to entertain the
thoughts is something else. Doing so will usually put me into a 'washing
machine' like cycle.
Of course it is not always easy, and working around electrical things which
drain my energy and weaken my fields leaves me exposed to fall back into my
mind. The thinking mind is a substitute for being or feeling.
>Just to be happy, without having a
> reason to be happy, to be in that calm and relaxed, and
> naturally happy and contented state, without having a reason
> to be there. When that reason is there, in whatever shape or
> form, often goes to my head, you could call it ego because I
> often form an identity from it, such as having an expensive
> sports car or a yacht.
Right, I know this... Happiness is not solid. Heart easily broken. Can you
seat yourself in your heart? If the mind is over-active it will keep drawing
you back to it. Attention attracts attention. A long walk and connecting
with nature and seeing through the heart may help.
> What's this got to do with K, well it's the K that gets us to
> that natural and content state of mind. I don't know if i'm
> making sense, this is becoming a big issue for me right now,
> how to think happy without becoming attached to those outside
> objects that we really are only bringing false happinness.
You are making sense. K can unbalance thinking. I have no ability to hold
thoughts or intelluctualise like I used to. I used to be able to entertain
something in my mind for a long period of time and think around it. Someone
coined it 4-d thinking. I don't have this ability much now. I forget easily
and no longer can focus well.
At the worst it feels like my thoughts are being ripped away ... I loose the
association with logical thinking.
But hollowing the brain and willing the K to move through andout of the head
can help. I sometimes imagine a big road running through me and visualise a
lane going through my head. All the blocks are like cars and they can drive
off into space. I do it until I have the empty calm mind feeling and then
the heart can more easily be a humble abode.
With love,
Rich
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