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Recieved: 2003/02/28 14:41
Subject: Re: [K-list] Melancholy. And what is Kundalini you ask?
From: mundane zen
On 2003/02/28 14:41, mundane zen posted thus to the K-list:
Dear OMA,
>... I opened my eyes and looked at the bridge again, then the scene
>appeared in my head as a large group of text, only it was highly
>descriptive and sounded much like a novel. This ability to translate
>scenery to highly developed text told me something.
I sometimes see twisted lines of text projected onto my surroundings. I've
seen this for years, off and on. Unfortunately, it's in some weird script
and language that I am unable to translate. I don't get this effect when K.
is channeled properly thru the center of the spine, but seemingly when it
rises thru another channel (ida or pingala perhaps).
>... I think that Kundalini is actually, according to everyone's
>suspicions of deletion of ego, that it doesn't actually FREE you from
>ego-effects, but rather BRINGS you to them.
Again, when K. goes up another channel, I've felt this intense awareness of
ego too; but instead of bliss and super-consciousness, it's usually
associated with feelings of dread and other unpleasant emotions.
>Instead of getting rid of the software, it make the software hardware.
>It makes you who you really are. If you're (hope this doesn't sound
>corny) evil, it makes you evil without holding back. You CAN be evil
>to just a certain level, I'm not saying it makes you full blown evil,
>but it will get rid of whatever makes people doubt their own choices.
Well, there's selfishness and then there's enlightened self-interest, the
latter being selfishness tempered by a desire not to harm others.
>If you're good, then it simply helps relieve you of anger and judgment
>towards others, that sort of thing. It stops your doubts. It simply
>makes you who you really are, or LETS you BE who you really are.
My experience of "who you really are" is bliss, clear light, and pure
undifferentiated, transcendental, ubiquitous, awareness -- just "being", not
the body and its ego.
>I hope others get the good side out, but it's not for me. I'm not
>evil, I mean I'm still a Christian and all, but I'm afraid I'm just
>not going to love my fellow man, hold back my anger, or really care
>about life and living.
This seems like a major contradiction. You seem intelligent enough to
discern the difference between those who are Christian in name only, and
those who are Christian in spirit. How can you say, "I'm Christian" and
also, "I'm not going to love my fellow man"? For instance:
"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone
who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not
know God, because God is love." -- 1 John 4:7-8
>...I don't really love anyone, and I don't want love. It makes me
>sick.
The sappy, saccharine, fake, just-for-show, kind of love makes me sick too.
>I like to hate and be hated. When I'm rich enough(and I will be rich
>one day), I will fund and build an organization based on hatred, that
>will become a political enemy to governments...
Are you a Goth?
>Does anyone else think I'm right about my True Self Motivation
>(catchy?) theory?
It seems more born of ego than true Self. Overt hate is perhaps more honest
than fake love, but lead away from the essence of who you really are.
ken
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