To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/02/26 22:07
Subject: [K-list] thinking about mind vs brain
From: Lavina Leone
On 2003/02/26 22:07, Lavina Leone posted thus to the K-list:
I have been reading and digesting the conversations about the mind and the
brain. I have noticed that it is becoming more and more difficult for me to
express my thoughts with words and even more so to put my thoughts into
words and write them before they float away, please be patient with me. This
mind/brain thread is significant to me and my thoughts keep coming back to
it.
I guess my brain is dying prematurely, mudh faster than my body anyway. This
explains how come using it the way I am used to using it isn't working so
good any more and on a good day I spend nearly as much time making reminders
as I do accomplishing the tasks themselves. I try to spend some time each
day doing visualizations intended to feed my brian and keep it alive a while
longer, if that is possible, and why not I ask myself?
I think what I read from the list is that the brain is less than the mind,
in the long run anyway. That the mind is what is important, the mind is the
connection that is shared(?) and the brain is more hindrance than help for
the spiritual (read, more important) part of who or what we are.
I wonder about this. Sure, the brain may only be the connector between the
spiritual and the physical. We cannot survive very long without a working
brain. Physically our body will deteriorate and die but it is more than
that, for me.
I 'go away' sometimes for hours at a time, I don't really, but it feels like
I do, I think of nothing, that I remember thinking about but I feel very
much alive when my thoughts return. It is only painful when I try to
remember the little things that keep me functioning in this world. It is a
real blow to my ego that I won't be able to be trusted to care for myself,
physically, as this condition progresses but if I did not need to remember
things like eating or bathing it would not be so bad, I never have yet felt
unsatisfied at the loss of time, and I have not felt so connected
spiritually in all my life as I do today. It is the ability to make a
connection with the experience of LIFE that is hard to accept. Making a
connection to it at all becomes difficult, caring to do so matters a little
less as time passes. It feels like no big deal, but the living part of me
wants to remember the joy, the excitement the struggle of what life has
been, and without the brain there seems to be no reason to. I used to think
that it would not matter, but it does.
I wonder now about how people say they remember past lives, with my brain
dying I can't remember yesterday. It does not make sense that as the
information of this lifetime is less available to me today how it will be
available when my brain has died completely?
It is becoming evident to me that my brain is essential to enjoying this
life physically and mentally and spiritually it does not just connect me to
the universal all, it makes sense of all that through my experiences.
I am content enough just to be when I 'go away' but the loss of memory and
reasoning is very real without the brain to translate it when I return.
I read now how people want to reach a state of mind that bypasses the
inferior brain to experience whatever it is that exists independent of the
brain. (mind?) I used to think that that would be a really cool thing to
learn to do, to tap into that something that is unfettered by my ego and my
judgments and my less than perfect expressions - muddled with my experiences
into something interpreted by such an imperfect brain, such as mine. I
wanted to experience the universal mind and shed my imperfect thoughts
created in my imperfect brain.
As these imperfect things become less and less available to me, and I spend
increasingly more time with what must be the mind, not the brain, I find
myself wondering if the condition of my brain is the natural result of
wanting too much for too long to be connected to the greater mind, the
universal spirit.
the phrase 'Be careful what you wish for.' seems to sum up for me just how
powerful the brain/mind connection actually can be. It seems to me, these
days, that had I known then how powerful the brain is that I would not have
thought to dismiss its ramblings so easily. I would embrace more fully my
imperfections, and experience my thoughts just for the sake of THEM If I
have it to do again and I hope there is some truth to remembering past lives
because I would like to remember this the next time around:
Spirit is forever, but *this brain* is a short lived gift.
I seek now to savor each moment I can squeeze from it and I do not worry so
much about the connection to the all mighty universal mind which goes on
forever, instead I struggle to remember the experience of this moment in
eternity that is slipping away faster than my physical body. It may only be
a speck in whole scheme of things, but the thoughts this brain once thought
that are now lost and memories of this life.. they matter when you are
living in the now. A brain gives a quality to life that I took for granted
before and I would give anything to be able to recover the ability to have
known IT much better rather than use seeking to use a mind to chase my
thoughts away I wish I could turn back the clock and wish instead for
independence from the all for just a while longer. Or maybe better yet to
use my brain to allow the MIND to experience more fully the wonder of life
independent of universal mind.
Maybe this is already known, maybe that is where the instinct to survive and
evolve comes from to begin with.
Lavina
"Right now I'm having amnesia and deja vu at the same time. I think I've
forgotten this before."
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