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Recieved: 2003/02/24 22:57
Subject: [K-list] Deepsrin's Woes
From: Lbra782595
On 2003/02/24 22:57, Lbra782595 posted thus to the K-list:
deepsrin AT_NOSPAM yahoo writes:
> i also struggle with
>sexual issues. In the east, where i come from, alll
>the spiritual saints have preached brahmacharya or
>celebacy to attain god. Sex and expressing sexuality
>is deemed dirty and non-godly. Yet, in the Bagavad
>Gita, lord Krishna says that attainment of Moksha or
>liberation can also be done thru Kama or Sexual
>tantric practices....\
>also, Christianity preaches abstainence to attain God.
>I HENCE TRY TO FIGHT my natural urges and practice
>abstinence but it is very dufficult...
The human being was designed to be a sexual creature. If celibacy doesn't work for you, don't push it. I had my own bouts with sexuality when I first woke up. I couldn't decide either whether it was the right indulge myself or not. How old are you..23 did you say. You have a long time to be celibate, go out and sow your wild oats now and get it out of your system. PRACTICE SAFE SEX! Celibacy allows you to refocus your sexual/creative energy into an energy that will help you on your spiritual quest. It takes quite a bit of practice to be able to do this. Like I was, you are in a hurry to get to the goal. The goal is not the lesson. The path is the lesson. Walk the path and if sex is on the path don't walk around it or you'll just have to come back and do it later.
>In short, im a burnout case in every way. I also feel
>that im a bad human being with a big ego...though ive
>been fooling myself that i have been getting rid of my
>basal emotions...
Your too hard on yourself. Take a rest from it. It sounds like you can't see "{the forest for the trees". If you were to clean up all your karma at once, you'd either be dead or in an asylum. It is not a swift process. Your writing suggests you have released some ego because you are humble enough to ask for help with a personal matter.
>I want peace of mind. I want to find god. i
>want to find myself and be content with ME.
>WHAT DO I DO? can someone help me
I'd start by thinking of one thing that you like about yourself. Doesn't have to be anything special...just one thing. Then "Follow you Bliss" It will lead you to your path.
Barring that, seek an established path. Yoga or meditation. Find a teacher, maybe several teachers. Read books on spiritual topics. Take inventory of yourself. Be honest about the pro's and con's.
And keep communicating with your friends...and with us.
Love in Each Moment,
Jason B
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