To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/02/18 05:18
Subject: Re: [K-list] k-list] Psychopomps/brain/mind/More
From: hbrost
On 2003/02/18 05:18, hbrost posted thus to the K-list:
Hello Everyone again...
Anyone noticed how I'm a bit "different??" I didn't used to write about anything. Sort of sat back and read, listened, took in. Guess I've grown more comfortable with e-mail (and decidedly more loose at the fingers).
Something happened this weekend that corresponds with Hillary's question about the Mind and my experience with Kundalini. To boringly backtrack: On October 7th my Dalmatian Skye died of renal failure and my life fell apart. I spent my last dollars trying to save her life. Woohooo...can't save anyone from renal failure....I started a new business --blind cleaning. Oh fun. I'm dying in debt/bills, realize my future ordeals, want to leave this world...and of course, don't (FELIX!).
So on the Kundalini front, here's what happened: I started getting these "thoughts" again. It's like, everything shut down for a long time (a number of weeks). But all of a sudden, indigo blue is exploding in front of my eyes, with my eyes closed, of course, and energy is surging up through my left leg...and viola! Thoughts! What I mean by thoughts is that the other morning I was washing up the dishes and I realized how to change my self...with a small self. (s) The thoughts told me how to gain control of my perspective. That's about all I can remember because I can never remember the entirety of that kind of thought. Try as I might, the encompassing thoughts are elusive -- know what I mean? It's like the thoughts aren't really mine.
I realized not only how to change my perspective, but my demeanor, my attitude, my life. But if you put a gun to my head, I swear, I can't remember a single thought. Only the essence. It was a Kundlinia thought. Part of the whole. Not mine.
This hasn't happened for quite some time. Then it happened again a few days later. I feel in a way "I'm back." But what's "back?" It's like K abandoned me for all the pain I had to go through with Skye's death and now, this business, no money, paying bills. It put me in the real world without time for "thoughts." Then I found that K/God/dess didn't abandon me; I just had to learn some-thing.
Well, those are my thoughts, Hillary, and my experience. Part of the whole. Part of the Mind. We all can draw on it because It's there. Truly remarkable. What a thing when we can experience the collective Mind at will...
Love,
Hety
Thoughts anyone?
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