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Recieved: 2003/02/10 19:20
Subject: Re: [k-list] claustrophobia
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2003/02/10 19:20, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Kundalites tend to be empathic, I spent years being a hermit because being in a crowd was like having 10 TV sets on in my head, each tuned to a different station. Coupled with my ADD, it meant sometimes in a shopping mall I would find myself staring blankly at the light reflected in a crystal in a store window display...
Several things happened to set me free from that.
Part of it, was realizing that the empathic reaction was self created. My "New Age" intention to broadcast "love and light" everywhere I went, triggered karma stuff in other people, that flowed to me as the one responsible for triggering it. While in some ways I enjoyed the attention of appearing to people as a glowing, living Goddess manifest, emotional stability was more desireable.
I reversed it, (what you focus on, will grow) placing my attention and my energy inwards, focusing on the joy and subtle guidance of my heart and power chakra, and letting that guide my daily activities, instead of focusing externally. Appearances can be deceiving, but the heart always tells the truth.
When you do this, it changes how the Shakti-field affects people, from poking their stuff up, to a gentle "Goddess has it handled" glow. Intead of a horizontal, person to person energy exchange, there is a vertical interaction. Person to Spirit to person, with spirit modulating, filtering and enhancing the exchange.
A year ago, the person who I thought I was separated from me and departed... I had been manifesting an archetype without realizing, for unknown years. I got bored (rather, violently fed up and burnt out) with drama and attached myself to peace instead, and after a month of that, one day I saw myself, sitting beside me, looking unhappy. The archtype that was taking the form of me. Shortly after, she departed.
What followed was an odd process, of feeling very detached from my life, like it was an old coat I had inherited that did not fit too well. Eventually I turned it inside out, and found a silver lining that was worth keeping. I grew a new self, from within and became more authentically me... and keeping me full of me means less room for other people's stuff.
As a part of that process unfolding, I hired a healer who gave me two keys to avoiding unwanted empathy. Key #1 is an affirmation:
"I resolve to use only my own energy, especially in a social (or work, or romantic, whatever ) situation."
That means, no projecting, no vamping, no entanglements. No unwanted empathy.
The other key, relates to energy fields. Empaths in a crowd tend to instinctively pull their energy fields in, in an effort to decrease the entanglement. The result is the claustrophobic feeling. We each have several energy fields, some stay close to the body and others are meant to extend out several thousand feet, without entangling anyone. To reset the fields, you simply affirm your intention to do so.
Rub your sternum (the bony bump on your chest between your heart and the base of your throat) and say "I reset my four fields to their proper size and vibration."
You may feel a lightening, and an expansion as a result of doing is, as your cramped fields stretch out to their proper size and become properly balanced. I find my shoulders drop when I do it, making me aware that previously they were hunched, like someone cringing, ducking a blow.
I would be interested to know if those who are having crowd claustrophobia find relief by these methods.
Blessings...
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