To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/02/10 14:50
Subject: Re: [k-list] In the end...
From: mundane zen
On 2003/02/10 14:50, mundane zen posted thus to the K-list:
Dear OMA,
>I mentioned before that I don't fear death anymore, this is still >true,
>but what happens AFTER death is what I'm thinking about.
From my own experience, the more you understand your true self in the
present, the more you'll understand what happens after death. It's another
one of those life paradoxes.
>I can't think of anything anymore BUT what happens after I kick the
> >bucket.
I've found that thinking about it only leads you around in circles.
>Right now in this life, I'm not really doing much,
Well cripes, if you've got a lot of free time, find a good spiritual path
and practice.
>I'm trying to be an author, I'm writing and thinking. The problem is
> >whatever I do to get though doesn't matter. I could end up writing a
> >million best sellers, but that won't matter.
You seem to be onto an important realization. How much value will Bill
Gates's billions have on his deathbed? How important was John Lennon's fame
as he was being gunned down? I used to want to be a famous composer, but
now what's important is how I treat others, how much I have learned about
who I am -- stuff like that.
>I can't help feeling that if I don't do something terribly important >with
>my life, that it's been worthless this whole damn time.
Terribly important to whom? You as an individual are part of this vast
unfolding universe. How can your life be worthless? It's evolving as it's
supposed to, as part of a greater whole. Do you want to make some dramatic
change?
>But I actually feel like I WILL do something terribly important and
>it's pissing me off that I just have to wait around to find out what >or
>even IF.
Be here now! It's all there ever is. It's the only place you can DO
anything. Who knows what the future will bring.
>...
>What I'm hoping is that Kundalini will eventually lead me to a real >reason
>to live...
Don't look for reasons, look for clarity. Don't look axiously toward the
future, look deeper into the present. Discover who you really are.
ken
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