To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/02/09 11:46
Subject: Re: [k-list] claustrophobia
From: felix
On 2003/02/09 11:46, felix posted thus to the K-list:
On Sun, 9 Feb 2003 11:07:04 +0700
"Rich" <ulterium AT_NOSPAM barrysworld.com> wrote:
> Hi Felix,
>
> I have found myself choosing a more isolated and solitary
> life as the years have rolled over. I suspect for me this
> is some kind of avoidance behavior, feeling that I can be
> quite content doing very little and being choosy about
> where my time and focus is spent. Being amongst groups of
> others and having to succumb to their wills and ego's for
> the sake of being rejected or judged can sometimes be an
> unpleasant experience. As David would no doubt tell me
> it's my resistance to follow others. I think we people
> have chosen our path, maybe too much so that we are no
> longer willing to subject ourselves to others paths
> (wills) so readily.
Hi Rich,
There's always that occult principle of reversability.
Things are not always what they seem. The slave sometime
becomes the master. The good slave always does. Subjecting
oneself to another's will in deep sincerity can turn the
trick. One of the things that can be found out in a time is
that some people adopt a masterful, leadership role to cover
up for the fact that inwardly, they're not all they seem to
be. How many strong, domineering men have you ever observed
who kept the act up until they got home where it becomes very obvious that it's their wife who is the real boss? Standing
under someone can lead to understanding.
With most people, I usually like the mask better than the
creator. If a person gnows the persona is a mask they
created, and they love the creator of the mask, then we
be-co-me-s much more easily. '-)
<>
> PS Felix... Is that your real name? Just curious.. In my
> younger years there used to be a bit of a rave act by
> someone called felix. I remember reading about him and he
> was quite a reclusive person - I don't think it's you?!
Then, it probably isn't. Like many people who have done a
lot of traveling I have a lot of nay-me-s. Not necessarily
to be deceptive, but to see if people will accept me in the
different personas I have pretended to. It certainly doesn't
make any difference to me who I think I am, why should it to
them?
I woke up with the strangest dream. A group of men had
offered some of us well-paying jobs selling cigarettes, in a
week. We went out to play and there were some mini-scooters
sitting around called 531s. We got on the scooters to play
around, and mine was very unusual. The motor revved real
high, but it was slow and the others ran in circles around
me. Funny though, it was raining and my 531 threw up a
rooster tail... in front of it! Everything is the reverse
with me.
We returned to the building where the men were who had
offered us the jobs. All the doors along the hallway had
padlocks on them except for this one door to the room where
we had made the deal. As I opened the door, I could see that
the room had been cleared out, and the men were packing
stuff in briefcases. They were going to run out on us and stiff the deal. We were infuriated. They attempted to leave
the building, but we grabbed their briefcases. One of us
demanded they compensate us for leading us on. They started
writing checks, and I told my guy, "Make it a big one!"
I felt very pleased, as if I knew something he didn't. Big,
strong-looking Armenian fellow with nervous eyes. I gnow
him. The jig is up.
felix
DISCLAIMER!
Home | Archive Index | Search the archives | Subscribe
K. List FAQ | Kundalini FAQs | Signs and Symptoms | Awakening Experiences | K. list Polls | Member Essays | Meditations | List Topics | Art Gallery | Cybrary | Sitemap | Email the moderators.
symbol.