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Recieved: 2003/02/03 14:04
Subject: Re: [k-list] little Mystress
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent

At 04:43 PM 01/02/03, you wrote:
>Yes pleeeeeze.... Mystress scan it and post it. I want to see this picture.

   Heh... OK.
http://www.fire-serpent.org/house/house.html#plantpot


>That photo must be unspeakably precious to your mom, for all her ignorance of what was happening to you.
>
>Makes me wonder how often I injure or frustrate my daughter, in spite of loving her beyond all possibility.
>
>Shelle

  Each of us, has a similar experience, lost in the sands of time. The only thing different about mine, is my refusal to believe it was only a dream, and stubbornness about retaining the memory.

  The result, I have to say, was a mixed blessing. It is interesting to look back and know that the reason why I had psychic and paranormal experiences all my life was because I never fully became a "sleeper". My third eye stayed open, etc. However, it also made me a colossal misfit and attracted a lot of abuse. I did not grow an ego like other folks do, I did not see things the same, or have the same priorities... and I did not understand that my perceptions were not "normal."

   So... in many ways, those children who believe their parents and forget, are better off.

   I have never tried too hard to tell Mom the story, although I did specifically ask for her to find the picture, for me. I wanted to look into that little girl's eyes. Explaining it would probably just hurt her feelings, she would not understand now any better than she did, then. Nor would she want to know that that event was part of why I was such a stubborn and difficult child to raise. Gandhi said "The still small voice within is the only tyrant I will accept"... that is not a good attitude for a child!! I was not particularly obedient to it, either.

   Funny, how memory works. Mom denies smearing mud on my face, but I remember it, my siblings remember it, and it is obvious from the photo. I had been very tidy in my digging, careful. There is not much mud on my sleeper and the carpet, and a lot smeared in my face, bigger fingers put it there.

  I spent the next seven years digging, and looking down into every sewer repair hole and construction site I passed... looking for Light. :)

     Blessings...

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