To: K-list
Recieved: 2003/02/03 13:50
Subject: [k-list] Apathy... And religion
From: One Man Alone
On 2003/02/03 13:50, One Man Alone posted thus to the K-list:
Hi. One Man Alone here. It's been a while sense both my last post(computer problems) and my last meditation(personal problems). I feel like K is now my life support. It's strange. When I was meditating and more K active, everything seemed strange and weird. My mind played a lot of tricks on me. It kept me active and constant in my research. I feel like it was playing games with my sanity, but while driving me insane it was also keeping me sane at the same time. Seeing movement in reflections in my window at night when nothing is physically moving, feeling cold and my hands twitching whenever I spoke my true thoughts in any way, but also how it kept me busy with trying to figure out. I was bored until I got those problems, then it gave me something to figure out. I think it made me feel...(after I typed those 3 periods, I sat for a few moments trying to think of a proper word) The point is, it's been so long sense I last put any thought into K, and now I'm bored again. Can anyone think of a way to help me work harder into K besides meditation? I'm feeling very extroverted and have a great sense of apathy, or rather a weak sense of empathy. The only good thing I see from this is I now don't fear death, but I'm actually waiting for it, which brings me to my next topic, religion. (By the way, skip the next part if you're not up for a nearly pointless, long rant.)
Lately, on TV, in music, in books, even on the K-list, I've been hearing a lot of talk about religion. I'm a Christian, a true Christian, and I've been getting angry when I hear people talk about God casually or in a blasphemous way. For one, I don't think people realize the glory of God, which I have recently come to realize to a new level. God doesn't cause suffering, nor does he ignore it. He doesn't give us problems to deal with, LIFE and PEOPLE give us problems. I have a list of people I hate that is so long, it would put the author of War And Peace to shame. It's not very Christian to hate your fellow man, but my fellow man hates me, and "An eye for an eye". Despite my hate, I still help strangers when I can. I'm polite, a classic gentleman who let's ladies past first and watches his manners. But I hate the general population, but NOT because of whatever religion they choose. I also hate the way people relate religion with other beliefs like you can't believe in ghosts and be a Christian and things of that sort. K is God given. I'm exploring God's gift. And God doesn't send us to Hell, we send ourselves there with our sins. Sin draws us away from God and makes us spiritually weak and easily dragged to Hell. But in all the ideas that contradict my own learnings, I don't hate man, I hate mankind. I can learn to love a stranger (but I'm not a friggin hippie, slash and burn all damn forests you want to). All this rant is pointing to one question. Does anyone else think that mankind is lost in it's immaturity and thus will never evolve in the sense of Kundalini. Or does anyone think that with the recent spreading of awareness amongst teenagers to adults, will inevitably bring children born with enlightenment? Religion is suppose to be a sacred thing and yet people fight over it everyday. Does anyone think religious dissagreements will lead to humanity's downfall? Just wanted some thoughts.
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