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Recieved: 2003/02/03 09:46
Subject: [k-list] Finding joy in pain
From: Whimsical Zephyr
On 2003/02/03 09:46, Whimsical Zephyr posted thus to the K-list:
Hello all,
I was reading through some of the posts on the meaning of pain and I thought I'd contribute with something that happened to me just about a half an hour ago. But first a little background. These past few weeks, my throat chakra has been randomly swelling and hurting, only to go back to normal five minutes later. I figured my immune system must be acting up or something, as it does this time of year. But I've been trying to get grounded and just let my throat chakra swell up and hurt as much as it wants to, as I figured it was just trying to open some more. Or I figured as aforementioned that my immune system is down and I should let the goddess work on it.
Tonight I attended a potluck Imbolc celebration held by my university's pagan society. I was thinking about the ritual activity we did and ruminating on the next one, Eostara, and how maybe I could do some sort of tribute to the descent of the goddess Inanna/Eostara into the underworld for three days during the dark moon. As I pondered this, I started getting little snippets of music and lyrics floating through my head about the descent of the goddess. Now, understand I've always enjoyed singing but I've never written a song before. After a while I realized I had a full tune and a partial verse in my head. I thought, 'Wow, maybe I'm a bard now' giggling to myself. And suddenly my body started to vibrate like mad, and I got this oozy warmth in my solar plexus and heart, and tears of joy sprang into my eyes. I've been initiated as a bard, or something similar, by the Divine! Understand I'm not claiming to be a great songstress, but it feels like the start of a new phase of life, and I'm so happy, cause I love music and I love to sing! And I'm also happy 'cause I feel like I'm developing a real friendship with my Divine Beloved and the God/dess. I've stopped yelling at them and throwing tantrums every time things go wrong, and we're actually getting some real communication going. Amazing, huh? Even the gods don't like whiny, spoiled brats.....
So I just thought I'd share because of the correlation between throat chakra pain and artisitc rebirth. Pain can sometimes be a good thing, saith the masochist. *evil grin* Now, let's see how long it'll take me to find happiness in being arthritic.......
Oh, well, baby steps.
Sabrina
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