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Subject: Re: [k-list] Calling on Abundance
From: Whimsical Zephyr
On 2003/02/02 05:26, Whimsical Zephyr posted thus to the K-list:
Hi everybody,
Cool story, Mystress, I'm very happy that it worked out so well for you.
I've been trying to practice this surrender thing myself. Like lately.
'Divine Beloved, I can't go to school and work, please help me find the
money to go to school and not have to work, or give me something even nicer,
making sure it's in alignment with the higher good of all.' Took sick leave
from work, waiting to see whether I can get disability pay or EI. And I
asked for DB to help me stay detached from the outcome as well. So, it
crosses my mind, but I focus on my studies while I wait to see what happens.
Who knows? I'm having so much fun at school I don't obsess like I normally
would. And that in itself is a precious gift. And my stress level just
dropped drastically!!! So, I'm actually enjoying myself although I have no
clue if any money's on the way. And I appreciate soooo much that I can stay
relatively grounded about the whole thing, though cultivating groundedness
is something I'm still getting used to. But I thank DB for that much.
Mystress, does the tummo fire continously clear karma without your conscious
consent? By that I mean as long as there is consent on some level, be it
conscious or unconscious, the tummo fire continues to work even when you're
not calling on it or directing it? Or is directing it a mistake itself? I
get the impression tummo fire is like shakti in that regards? Sorry, I went
to check the archives, but they're not there anymore! *pouts* I asked DB and
he says all you need is some level of consent. I trust DB but I have trouble
listening and have the tendency to try to intellectually interpret signals
from my unconscious, so I thought I'd check with the expert. ;) Anyway, I
like this surrendering and not worrying, maybe I can chuck the blood
pressure pills some time! :) And I'm gonna make myself that wish box
suggested by one of our members, appeals to my witchy inclinations. And my
inner five-year-old.
Is it just me or are we all getting really talkative lately? ;)
Love and more love
Sabrina
----- Original Message -----
From: "Mystress Angelique Serpent" <Mystress AT_NOSPAM kundalini-gateway.org>
To: <k-list AT_NOSPAM kundalini-gateway.org>
Sent: Friday, January 31, 2003 9:26 AM
Subject: Re: [k-list] Calling on Abundance
> druid and I bought a house this weekend. I thought I would offer the
story of that, as an example of what I wrote of, earlier... manifestation
via surrender.
> I waited to send it, till we got confirmation of our mortgage approval.
:)
>
> At 08:30 AM 13/01/03, Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
> > Imagine that you already have it, what it would be like. Imagine
driving it and enjoying it, taking pleasure in travel and maintenance,
feeling grateful for it, waxing it with love. Make the visualization and the
attendant emotions of pleasure and gratitude, excitement or whatever, as
clear as you can. Emotion+imagination, in the now.
> >
> > Then, let it go. Turn it over to "as Goddess Wills". Do not think of it
again or wonder whether it will be as you imagined. That would be
second-guessing your prayer, and showing a lack of faith in the universe to
manifest your dreams. Sabotaging your visualization.
>
> We have been looking for a house, for a few months now. Seeing some
really ugly places, there were times I despaired at finding what we sought.
We had outlined a "wish list" including needs, wants, fantasies and what we
sought to avoid. Gave it to a real estate agent two weeks ago, because we
knew we needed some professional advice for the purchase transaction.
>
> About 10 days ago, druid sent me the URL of a house that completely
ungrounded me with excitement. It was in an area of town I much preferred,
it was much more expensive than the limitation he spoke of earlier... It had
an address on a street I had wished to live on, since I moved to Vancouver
in 1988. I wondered if he was teasing me!
> It had disadvantages too... it would need a lot of remodeling to make it
comfortable, and we would not even be able to see the inside till the
tenants moved out, Feb 1. We looked at it, walked around the outside, drove
around the neighborhood and considered options. I put the pic of it as
wallpaper on my computer.
>
> Once I calmed down after a few days, it felt neutral... unlikely. druid
ran the numbers a few days later, and it was not do-able. I was
disappointed, but not so much because I had already felt it was unlikely.
>
> I was getting tired of househunting, of hope and desire, of wanting and
frustration. I opted to surrender completely. Did a shower tantra ritual,
surrendering that house and all others, with an affirmation, "Thy will be
done, show me where we are meant to be" and focusing on gratitude, on
"lilies of the field, clothed in finest splendor". Goddess provides.
>
> The next morning, druid sent me another url he had found. (write me
privately if you want to see it)
> It sounded good, looked pretty. I put a pic of the house up as wall
paper and viewed it with curiosity, and surrender. Detachment. (It will be
as Goddess Wills.) We were able to view it 2 days later.
>
> It turned out to so completely fulfill our wish list that even our real
estate agent was amazed. Negotiation to buy it was completed in a matter of
hours. The payments will be less than the rent we pay now, but a vastly
superior place. Home. It had only been put on the market, 6 days before.
Needs no renovations, not even paint.
>
> A beautiful, spacious yet cozy home on a quiet street, backing onto a
wild ravine, a land reserve full of huge rainforest cedar trees is part of
our backyard. Not just part of the backyard, one of the sundecks is built
around a stately cedar, bigger than I could get my arms around. It comes
through a hole cut in the deck. I am going to build a circular bench around
it, so I can sit with my spine against it, and gaze at the mountains, city
and river, and the lovely ravine. There is a stream at the end of the block.
>
> My cup runneth over. Not only did it complete our wish list including
budget considerations, it also had many bonuses we had never thought to wish
for, or only casually mentioned but not put on the list, expecting we would
have to renovate to create them. Funny things, like a marina 2 blocks away
that we did not discover till after we made the offer. (My druid is very
into boats)
>
> I mentioned my surrender ritual to the real estate agent. He said it
must be kind of scary, to be able to *make* things happen like that. I
responded, that it is not about *making* anything happen. It is about
getting out of the way, stepping back, letting go of control and *allowing*
things to happen. He understood.
>
> I am experiencing peace, joy, fulfillment, happiness, and immense,
humbling gratitude. The joy and the gratitude mesh and flow and increase
each other, my heart an overflowing cup of bliss. Goddess provides! :)
>
> Blessings...
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