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Recieved: 2003/01/31 12:56
Subject: Re: [k-list] Calling on Abundance
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2003/01/31 12:56, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
druid and I bought a house this weekend. I thought I would offer the story of that, as an example of what I wrote of, earlier... manifestation via surrender.
I waited to send it, till we got confirmation of our mortgage approval. :)
At 08:30 AM 13/01/03, Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
> Imagine that you already have it, what it would be like. Imagine driving it and enjoying it, taking pleasure in travel and maintenance, feeling grateful for it, waxing it with love. Make the visualization and the attendant emotions of pleasure and gratitude, excitement or whatever, as clear as you can. Emotion+imagination, in the now.
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> Then, let it go. Turn it over to "as Goddess Wills". Do not think of it again or wonder whether it will be as you imagined. That would be second-guessing your prayer, and showing a lack of faith in the universe to manifest your dreams. Sabotaging your visualization.
We have been looking for a house, for a few months now. Seeing some really ugly places, there were times I despaired at finding what we sought. We had outlined a "wish list" including needs, wants, fantasies and what we sought to avoid. Gave it to a real estate agent two weeks ago, because we knew we needed some professional advice for the purchase transaction.
About 10 days ago, druid sent me the URL of a house that completely ungrounded me with excitement. It was in an area of town I much preferred, it was much more expensive than the limitation he spoke of earlier... It had an address on a street I had wished to live on, since I moved to Vancouver in 1988. I wondered if he was teasing me!
It had disadvantages too... it would need a lot of remodeling to make it comfortable, and we would not even be able to see the inside till the tenants moved out, Feb 1. We looked at it, walked around the outside, drove around the neighborhood and considered options. I put the pic of it as wallpaper on my computer.
Once I calmed down after a few days, it felt neutral... unlikely. druid ran the numbers a few days later, and it was not do-able. I was disappointed, but not so much because I had already felt it was unlikely.
I was getting tired of househunting, of hope and desire, of wanting and frustration. I opted to surrender completely. Did a shower tantra ritual, surrendering that house and all others, with an affirmation, "Thy will be done, show me where we are meant to be" and focusing on gratitude, on "lilies of the field, clothed in finest splendor". Goddess provides.
The next morning, druid sent me another url he had found. (write me privately if you want to see it)
It sounded good, looked pretty. I put a pic of the house up as wall paper and viewed it with curiosity, and surrender. Detachment. (It will be as Goddess Wills.) We were able to view it 2 days later.
It turned out to so completely fulfill our wish list that even our real estate agent was amazed. Negotiation to buy it was completed in a matter of hours. The payments will be less than the rent we pay now, but a vastly superior place. Home. It had only been put on the market, 6 days before. Needs no renovations, not even paint.
A beautiful, spacious yet cozy home on a quiet street, backing onto a wild ravine, a land reserve full of huge rainforest cedar trees is part of our backyard. Not just part of the backyard, one of the sundecks is built around a stately cedar, bigger than I could get my arms around. It comes through a hole cut in the deck. I am going to build a circular bench around it, so I can sit with my spine against it, and gaze at the mountains, city and river, and the lovely ravine. There is a stream at the end of the block.
My cup runneth over. Not only did it complete our wish list including budget considerations, it also had many bonuses we had never thought to wish for, or only casually mentioned but not put on the list, expecting we would have to renovate to create them. Funny things, like a marina 2 blocks away that we did not discover till after we made the offer. (My druid is very into boats)
I mentioned my surrender ritual to the real estate agent. He said it must be kind of scary, to be able to *make* things happen like that. I responded, that it is not about *making* anything happen. It is about getting out of the way, stepping back, letting go of control and *allowing* things to happen. He understood.
I am experiencing peace, joy, fulfillment, happiness, and immense, humbling gratitude. The joy and the gratitude mesh and flow and increase each other, my heart an overflowing cup of bliss. Goddess provides! :)
Blessings...
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