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Recieved: 2003/01/31 12:53
Subject: [k-list] My day...
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2003/01/31 12:53, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
... was very interesting. Full of sweetness and gifts.
I had a session with my favorite healer, Morgana.
http://www.spiritualmedicine.com/
I have a session with her, every few months or so, to clean up any stuff I have taken on from people in my own work, and overlooked clearing from myself... and whatever buried stuff of my own that I cannot see. I think she is more talented than me, and she thinks my talent is more powerful than hers. Mutual appreciation and respect.
She told me some interesting things... hauled away a demon projected by the Troll. I thought he was possessed... validation. Told me he is a transvestite, wanna be transsexual. That explains a lot of his jealousy... she told me many things about him, and pulled his debris from the list members.
Told me something that is strange, confusing, yet logical... good to know.
When I say "I am Goddess", I take myself out from under the umbrella protection of the angels, move above them, and then I am target practice for critters like the troll's demonic entity...
Goddess is All that is, including me, but the body experiences limitation, linearity. Body wants boundaries, food, shelter, warm clothes, safety. There is the vessel, and what it carries, channels. The universal, and the individual. Each have their place and role.
"The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak." I have played the role of being Goddess for people, taking on their karma and clearing it within myself... and got my fingers burnt... badly, repeatedly. Karma follows responsibility, shit flows uphill to where the buck stops. Best to have one more stop, higher than your human self. Bite off more karma than you can chew, die of kidney failure or liver disease, like so many Gurus do. Killed by worship and devotees.
I have known a lot of women, Pro-Doms and Tantric priestesses, who choose the title of Goddess instead of Mistress or Priestess... I respect their freedom to choose, but it has always felt wrong, to me. Unwise, disrespectful, naive, foolish... just a gut instinct. Nice to hear the reason expressed in clear words. There is purpose to having a hierarchy of surrender, and value in humility. Vessel of Goddess.
I spent time with one of my Priestesses today. Her name is Susan, my Priestess Freya. A good friend, I have known her for many years... yet I, nor other healers she has known before me, nor the other Witch Priestesses she has trained with, .. none could give her confidence and understanding of her vast power and intuitive gifts. There has been progress... but..
She is a natural healer and empath, takes on stuff from people without realizing and gets all bent out of shape, and does not *get* how to get clear again, or that the stuff is not her own. Says she does not see, does not feel... I know, she does, and better... but she just does not recognise that her vision is not mundane. It is ordinary for her, and others speak of their specialness. She dismisses the obvious truths that come to mind, looking for the esoteric mystery everybody tells her about. Heh... it is not *obvious* to everybody!!
I did not name her Freya, Freya chose her. She called me up one day, asking what Freya means. A strange man on the street had run up to her, babbling a lot of stuff she could not understand, and saying "Freya, Freya!" She, dressed in amber beads and gold jacket, hair streaked blonde... he dropped a handmade pentacle necklace at her feet, and ran off again.
I told her Freya is a Norse Goddess, look her up. She did not know how to spell it, so next time she visited we looked it up. I could not find my book of Goddesses, so we used the Brittanica... and what she read, made her weep with joy as her life fell into place.
She who loves gold and amber. She, who was born in the town of Walhalla on winter solstice, Dec 21. She, who loves pigs so much that her nickname is "Piggy" and she happily responded to her room-mate calling her "Pigshit" for 2 years before I pointed out that the name was not really complimentary. She had never actually considered what it meant... and decided she did not care. Pigs are sacred to Freya. She who is passionate, insatiable, girlish and maternal, foolish and a wise crone all at once.
She, who once fell apart at a weight watchers meeting when shown a picture of herself that they insisted was her, that she did not recognise. Argued with them about it. That was not what she had seen in the mirror all her life... she had seen an extremely cute, pretty blonde girl, slender. Freya.
Her talent is so natural, so abundant that she cannot see it... and when those who are lesser talents explain to her how hard they worked for attainment, she thinks that they must have something she does not. All her life, people told her that the things she sees, are not real, laughed at her... except me, and her other healer friend, Yvette. Yvette taught her for 9 years, before she met me. Yvette is brilliant.
http://www.kitsilano.net/etheric/index2.html
We had a breakthrough today. I felt that we would, asked her to come for some healing.
She was telling me about the dreadlocked, one eyed native alien she was seeing, in the patterns of light and shadow cast on my ceiling by the chandelier. Not an alien, a Shaman with a bright glowing 3rd eye. :) Not imagination, intuitive vision. He showed himself to you. I have looked at those patterns for years, and not seen him there. Saw other things, a rosebud, a leaf...
A handful of rice, and a large black dinner plate. I thought a question, and sprinkled the rice onto the plate, asked her what patterns and pictures she sees... like reading tea leaves. Cast the rice three times: three cards make a reading, three points make a line, three pictures tell a story. Then, told her what the question had been. A random pattern, + her brilliant imagination and vision = Goddess speaks, so clearly.
Working on her body... learn by doing.
I say a karma trigger statement, tell me how your body reacts, what you feel. What changes. Subtle feelings, sensations, emotions, mental pictures, muscle twitches, tension, thoughts. Anything.
Become aware of the ongoing conversation between thought and body, world and body, word and body. Body talks all day long, yaps away about everything it encounters, but not in words. Body giving her sensations subtle and large, pains, emotions, feelings, pictures... mostly, it is telling what is to be surrendered. Does that with everybody, most people never pay attention, never realize it IS a conversation. She had not, either.
Any trigger statement. I said "The moon is made of blue cheese." Body reacts, feelings, sensations, tension, pain, emotions... subtle and large.
Why?
How often were you lied to, as a child? How often did people expect you to swallow ideas that you knew were not true? Resonance. This is like that, so the resonant stuff shows itself. Body responds, says, "here is the stuff related to that stuff, can we let it go, now? Surrender it?" Not in words, but showing you, here and here and this and that... OK!
"Goddess take this, and everything connected to it, it is a gift for you. Thank you very much." Breathe. Think of something else. Attention is attachment, Goddess takes it when you are not looking.
Look again... Gone.
Repeat trigger, say it again: "the moon is made of blue cheese". Different reaction, more subtle. Next layer of the onion. Surrender that, too.
Repeat trigger: "The moon is made of blue cheese." No reaction. Stuff cleared. Thank you body!
This stuff is so easy, why do people make it hard??? She gets it. FINALLY!!! :)
Paying attention when the body talks, and surrendering is what mindfullness means. Simple. Takes some practice to make it a habit... but it is not hard.
Next sensation: pain under left kneecap. Look at it, it moves. Entities move, respond. Blockages just sit there, like a brick. Easy to tell the difference.
Entities are sentient. Talk to it.
I ask "Who is in there?"
She hears **It's MEEE!**
Laughs, "That can't be right, it is just what I'd say, when I was a kid."
Yeah, the obvious thing is the truth.
I ask "do you want to come out?"
She hears **No!**
I ask "What are you doing in there?"
She hears **Hiding!** We laugh.
"Why don't you want to come out? What is so bad about out here"
She hears **It's cold!** I hear **It's scary!!** Cold=scary, same thing.
I say, "what if there was a much nicer place you could be, someplace fun, warm and happy... would you let the angels take you there?"
(Happy feeling) **Oh yes, please!!**
"Angels, take this little being into the light, keep it safe and warm and happy, as you think best. Thank you very much."
Presto, knee pain is gone. Easy. Obvious. She gets it.
The Shaman on my ceiling watches, and smiles...
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