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Recieved: 2003/01/17 18:09
Subject: Re: [k-list] How to get out of astral hell (mental chaos/over-b
From: Rita Metermaid
On 2003/01/17 18:09, Rita Metermaid posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Rich and All Friends -
This was a most excellent post, and I felt bad
snipping it... :-)
I have had some similar experiences over the past
several months and can say that I totally agree that
surrendering to Goddess is the only way to go. We are
put into people's spheres and they into ours for
reasons we cannot fathom, only Goddess' plan. That is
what works for me.
But I have been experiencing 3 totally different
individuals projecting their stuff onto me for a
couple of months, and I am at the point now where I
hesitate to even open certain email accounts or check
list posts on other assorted lists because these
people are like ninjas putting out messages there for
me. I know this makes me sound paranoid, but it is
true.
And I have been getting zapped with enormous bursts of
vibes from them sending me their jealousy and fears
and shame and guilt and anger and it is almost
debilitating. Those particular emotions are NOT ones
that figure strongly in my own repertoire, and it is
disconcerting to have these unfamiliar things
projected onto me. I have missed work from it and my
teenager asked me why I am getting so skinny the other
day. And I just want gentleness and an occasional hug
and some chocolate. I am a simple person with simple
needs and a simple lifestyle.
And what it comes down to for all of these 3 others is
that they are afraid to Love, afraid of Love, afraid
of being Love afraid to surrender to Goddess or the
Beloved and just go with the flow of Love for All that
is there. And yet I have seen such improvement with
some that it gives me hope.
I am usually strong when it comes to that sort of
stuff - usually I can just sense the incoming and
shake it off, but not for the past few days. Last
night it was really bad. There are times when people
don't even know which 'stuff' is their own and which
is anothers. And I don't mind working with them and
doing the healing - really it is helpful for me, too.
And I don't mind taking their karma and freeing them,
really. But when it is 3 people all at once, it is
overwhelming.
And there are a couple of safe-haven lists that I like
to visit and now it seems that these messages and
stuff are being sent to the safe places ... and I
don't like that one bit. I feel like there should be
places for 'work' and places for recreational moments,
you know?
And these 3 people - I feel deep gratitude and love
for one of them, and that person knows it, and
something neutral for 1, and something negative
towards the 3rd. And two of them seem to be jealous of
each other, with me caught in the middle! Zounds.
Anyway, sorry to have rambled on like this, but
everything you said in your post just made so much
sense. Especially when you spoke of how you were able
to feel grateful for the experience you had, and how
you were able to see the beauty in the other. When I
read that, a few tears came.
Like you said, when we surrender to Goddess, she can
help release these things. Thank you all for listening
and sorry this was so long.
peace and love to all,
rita
PS - And to whomever is projecting their "bad" stuff
onto me, ask me first if it is a good time to work
with me? Thanks.
--- Rich <ulterium AT_NOSPAM barrysworld.com> wrote:
[...]
> My recent experience was a heavy battering of
> projections and judgements
> from someone to do with insecurity, jealousy and
> selfishness. I took on
> the whole bunch.
>
> Goddess released this. But behind it was my own
> incident of an
> experience relating to when I felt bullied by an
> older kid to giving him
> money. He then stole a bag of money that my
> grandparent had given me to
> go to the amusements with. I was about 6 or 7 then.
> The experience had
> become a major attachment for me and placed on
> auto-pilot with little
> remembrance in normal life.
>
> Being grateful for this experience and seeing the
> beauty in the other
> person who stole from me was enough for my to let go
> of my heavy
> protective attachment in this area. With that, some
> of my own insecurity
> and no doubt some stuck judgments about his jealousy
> and behavior in
> that time.
>
>
> Remarkably as I write this a certain person I am
> connected with, calls
> upon me to say she has lost her wallet and 10,000
> baht.
>
>
>
> Rich
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