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Recieved: 2002/12/29 01:29
Subject: [K-list] Fwd: Was my experience an actual Kundalini?
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/12/29 01:29, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
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>Greetings,
>
>I had one very interesting and unusual event in my life and I'm still
>not sure what that was. I'm a computer scientist and was doing Ph.D. at
>that time. I was sitting on advanced AI class and thinking about
>learning principles in a particular kind of neural network in context of
>a maze navigation problem. I was sort of imagining/simulating this in my
>head. Then suddenly a thought came: "That is me!". I never thought that a
>mind could ever recognize/see some resemblance with itself in one of the
>models it's pondering about. One can see analogy in this situation in
>sort of seeing itself in a mirror for the first time. There are
>different possible theories of what might have happened. After that even
>more interesting things had began. I decided to "wake up". I was not
>sleeping at that time, of course, but what I'm referring to is something
>more than just being awake. Where I got the knowledge how to do it, I
>don't know. The introspection of this is like the whole brain lit up,
>the flow of energy through the neck increases, then starting from the
>left hemisphere some cycle begins, then equivalent pattern in the left,
>then something which I recall as a whirl from above surrounding the
>head. Then I felt I could "wake up" even more and I did it. Well, I did
>not feel the oneness with Universe, but thought kind of "that's what the
>human being really is, it's good to create, love and imagine. Then I
>decided to "wake up" even more and that was probably my mistake. The
>excitation came from the left and right to a center, which seemed to be
>controlling all that. This is sort of the area highlighted on the cover
>of the book "The "God" Part of the Brain". I'm not sure where the author
>drew the inspiration for this picture, moreover, neuroscience says that
>the brain hemispheres are not connected there. Anyway, that's how it
>felt.
>
>When the excitation entered that area I still remember sort of crying
>like it's dying chorus of "Ah!" of .. one can call it the consciousness
>or that swirl collapsed into a point and expanding as a tourus, I don't
>know. I started to loose consciousness, even the usual one. Something
>that feels like a strain of force came from somewhere around the solar
>plexus. At some point I had a choice of going left or right. I went
>right. I this strain only got to the lower right frontal lobe area. It
>was enough to restore the consciousness. I felt pain in the area where
>the excitation met like it was physically damaged. I was able to think
>ok, some planning and short term memory were impaired, e.g. it took me a
>while to recall where I parked my car, the rest was usual or even better
>than usual. Anyway, I felt a strain of energy coming from the base of
>the spine coming through the right hemisphere and ending in that right
>bottom frontal lobe. After that, a lot of unusual things started to
>happen. Strange dreams, unusual sensations in the body, sort of
>consciousness expansion and above all extremely vivid imagination, one I
>never had before. There is lot's of different stuff in addition to
>this(I don't want to put it down in one email. I can tell it to those
>who interested.), but it's I guess enough to give you the idea what
>happened.
>
>After a few years everything returned more or less to normality. I still
>have painful sensation in the base of the spine. That's why decided to
>contact you guys, since the base of the spine matters a lot in
>kundalini. Many of mine hormones are out of balance. I don't think that
>sharp as I used to when I was doing PhD. There some other bothering
>symptoms.
>
>The questions that I have are: What do you think it might have been
>besides the obvious conclusion that I just suddenly went crazy? Is it a
>Kundalini? Who else had similar experiences while doing scientific
>research or studies? What studies of that has been done? What shall I do
>to get rid of the rest of the bothering symptoms or get it under
>control?
>
>Looking forward for your opinions.
>
>Best regards,
>
>******
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