To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/11/13 21:00
Subject: Re: [K-List] Help received from Goddess!!!
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/11/13 21:00, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 09:28 AM 13/11/02, Patricia Stevens wrote:>Hi Everyone,
>
> My name is Pat, and like you, I am very happy to be here!
Some, it seems, are not so happy to be here.. ;) Glad you are tho!
> My daughter brought me and Mystress together! Very strange
>occurrance, as my daughter is known on the list as Cambie/Holly2 and anyone
>who has been keeping up with recent posts, knows that she and Mystress have
>collided on some issues. She is getting thru to my daughter and I sincerely
>wish that she not give up just yet! Patience is a virtue, and in this case,
>down right needed!!!
I am really not so virtuous... and patience has never really been my
strong suit. As I wrote to her, "helping people who will not help
themselves is the road to burn out." Something I learned the hard way, too
many times. My karma, perhaps... but I know 2 people who I went way out on
a limb for, years ago, and my body still gets a post traumatic stress
reaction if they contact me. I just cannot do that again. I have to respect
my impatience, it is my body safewording. The body is wise.
Holly has to take responsibility for herself, for what she creates. At
this point I think any further "help" from me would be "enabling". Allowing
her to continue to hand responsibility over to someone else.
In any case, from my observation she does not listen to me. She blames
me, then goes complaining to you, and you smack her and tell her I am
right... that is when she gets it. How about if we just skip the middleman
and you help her, instead. No hard feelings, no regrets. She has everything
she needs, and it is up to her to apply it. Nobody can do that for her, and
trying to is just "enabling". Validating her belief in her helplessness.
>But if anyone needs Mystress' help, it is her. Love
>will find a way!
Goddess has it handled.
> The questions ranged from very simple to very hard. Some of
>these questions only he could answer. Others were for me! Trying to sort
>this out in my mind became a trap.
Your Divine Beloved set you up... It will do that, take on the form of
someone outside of you, and set up difficult and unworkable situations with
external folks of the same gender, till you get frustrated and desperate
enough, to give up and look within for what you need.
Please get grounded and check this out with your heart. Find out what
was the manager and what was your DB... it may not be sharply
defined... Meditate on it and keep checking for resonance in your body,
till the message is clear to you, and He shows up in a new form.
>. A revealation of there being no message to deliver. It had all been
>a "trick" played on me. Keeping me occupied while the "k" was working on the
>rest of me.
yup.
The other side of "hope", is fear of the future and a desire to control
what will be. Hope takes you out of the moment. Hmm.. wrote an essay on
that, somewhere. Do a search on the phrase "Abandon all hope, ye who enter
here" in the K-list archives and you will find it.
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org/klist/search.html
> That's when I fell apart! To spend over a year pursuing answers
>to the dreams and guidance and influences beyond my control, only to find
>out in the end....This?
Breakdown leads to breakthrough. So it must be, sometimes. Osho has a
nice tarot card about it.:
>11. Breakthrough
>To transform breakdowns into breakthroughs is the whole function of a
>master. The psychotherapist simply patches you up. That is his function.
>He is not there to transform you. You need a meta-psychology, the
>psychology of the buddhas.
>It is the greatest adventure in life to go through a breakdown
>consciously. It is the greatest risk because there is no guarantee that
>the breakdown will become a breakthrough. It does become, but these things
>cannot be guaranteed. Your chaos is very ancient - for many, many lives
>you have been in chaos. It is thick and dense. It is almost a universe in
>itself. So when you enter into it with your small capacity, of course
>there is danger. But without facing this danger nobody has ever become
>integrated, nobody has ever become an individual, indivisible.
>
>Zen, or meditation, is the method which will help you to go through the
>chaos, through the dark night of the soul, balanced, disciplined, alert.
>The dawn is not far away, but before you can reach the dawn, the dark
>night has to be passed through. And as the dawn comes closer, the night
>will become darker.
>Osho Walking in Zen, Sitting in Zen Chapter 1
>Commentary:
>The predominance of red in this card indicates at a glance that its
>subject is energy, power and strength. The brilliant glow emanates from
>the solar plexus, or center of power on the figure, and the posture is one
>of exuberance and determination.
>
>All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough." At such
>times it seems we must do something, anything, even if it later turns out
>to be a mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are
>limiting us. If we don't, they threaten to suffocate and cripple our very
>life energy itself.
>
>If you are now feeling that "enough is enough," allow yourself to take the
>risk of shattering the old patterns and limitations that have kept your
>energy from flowing. In doing so you will be amazed at the vitality and
>empowerment this Breakthrough can bring to your life.>>>>>> Apprehensively, I made the call to Mystress. <snip>
>She told me that I was a natural born "empathic healer". The
>empathy I knew about, but the healing part of it was new.
Well, they kind of go together. I did not want to become a healer,
Goddess tricked me. Blackmailed me into it. Too much empathy with other
people's pain, the only way out was to help them feel better so it would
leave me. I was motivated to learn and grow, and get very good at it.
Selfish motivation.
The empathy is not a problem anymore... remember that affirmation I
taught you:
"I resolve to use only my own energy, especially in a social (or work)
situation."
Still use a selfish motive... watching people grow, is fun! I had to
learn more detachment tho, lest I be disappointed when they did not grow
enough for my expectations. Detachment, to learn when growing is
"enabling", validating their belief in their helplessness.
> Thru me, I had been trying to get his attention to listen to his
>"DIVINE" self. All the confusion that I had been going thru, now made sense.
Turn it around. It is not about him. Through him, your Divine self has
been trying to get your attention, so you would listen.
>She led me then to find the truth from
>within. By a series of questions, I found that "lie detector" she refers to
>on her site. The simplicity of it was amazing, and so empowering.
Yes, it is simple. Now teach it to Holly.
>I know it is not easy to find someone who is lost, but somehow, she did!
You were not so lost... you had just given yourself away... to what is
outside of yourself.
>PS...Mystress, after the session, I went in side and practised the grounding
>and opening of my crown chakra. Another amazing thing happened. I made the
>flower DANCE...The center of the flower became a ballerina and she began to
>spin and then....broke away from the flower and slowly moved away straight
>up!!!!!
Sounds like pretty imagery for the tornado I used on you. Whatever
works! Thanks for sharing your joy in growing. It is beautiful. You are
beautiful.
Blessings!
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